Beyond Old Scars

Baby!!

It's been months since May and graduation; I am now eight months pregnant and very excited. Only I'm terrified that I'll end up just like my father or mother, Lucifer says I won't, that I'm nothing like them and I believe him.

The New Year has come and gone, it's almost February, and still very chilly. The doctors are worried about the baby, my sweet baby girl who I haven't even met yet. Lucifer has chosen some good names but I don't know what I'll name her until she is born, though I am very tired most of the time I manage to help even if Lucifer doesn't want me to.

It's been terribly cold all day; I've been feeling an odd pain, I'm not sure what it is. I tell Lucifer to go to work that I'll be fine and I will call if anything happens. It's almost six and the pain starts getting worse, it's so bad that I end up falling onto the floor.

It feels like I'm going to the bathroom right here, but I'm not. Oh god, not now, please not now!! I thought to myself as I grab the phone and dial 911. I tell them what's happening and they said they would be at the house in ten minutes, not to move, next step is to call Lucifer.

In hysterics from being in pain and scared and crying I dial his number. On the second ring he picks up the phone.

"Hey baby, what's going on?" he can hear me crying

Trying to catch my breath I speak "My water broke, but something is still very wrong I can feel it!"

"Just breath, did you call an ambulance?" he asks scared, why wouldn't I call one? I'm so damn scared but I'm not stupid.

"Yes, please meet me at the hospital; I'm so scared for the baby"

"I promise, I love you Alice, and our baby girl"

"I love you too" is all I say before the paramedics get there and place me in a stretcher.

Lying on the long uncomfortable bed, I'm being wheeled into the back of the ambulance while both paramedics try to calm me down. Hate hospitals, ambulances, surgery, all of it.

Once we are at the hospital they take me up to the labor and delivery rooms, they grab either the top or the bottom sheet, lift me and place me on a bed; and a doctor comes in to check me, by the look on her face it isn't good news for me. Being even more scared I start to cry again.

"Hello Alice, I'm Doctor Grey. Could you please lie on your side for me?" She half says half asks me

"Do you have family that will be here for you?"

"Yes, my soon to be husband; what's wrong with my baby?"

"We need to take you into surgery, the baby is in distress."

"I want Lucifer please... Where is he, he needs to be here?!"

As I finish my sentence Lucifer runs in, tears running down his face from the other doctor telling him what's happening "My baby I'm here, I'm here."

"I don't wanna die, this is how my grandmother died" I said with tears running down my face.

The doctor piped in before he could speak "You will if you don't go in right now, he can go in but he has to stay at your head. You and your baby are both under the best care by me." 

As I'm getting wheeled into the operating room I hear the doctor talking with Lucifer.

"While you're in there with her, you have to keep her calm, she will be awake; she has to be. Stress isn't good for her or the baby right now, do you understand?"

"Yes, keep her calm" He repeated, he looked so scared and tired when he entered the room with me. Seeing all of the things I was connected to, I was scared too.

Up by my head before they start I hear Lucifer whisper things into my ear, the surgery feels like forever. I am lying on the table only fifteen minutes before I hear my sweet baby girls cry. When the doctor lays her on my chest I start to cry, her eyes are a glassy blue like a birds egg, and she has a full head of red hair, oh how beautiful.

"What's her name baby?" Lucifer asks, while his hand is running through my hair.

"Her name is James, my sweet baby girl"

"Nice name, it's cute" The doctor says as she stitches up my stomach.

Once everything was over they took my baby into the nursery and I went into my room to sleep and recover. But the only thing I could think of at that one moment was my father and what he said to me at graduation.