Beyond Old Scars

Remembering Past And Present

It's been three months since Lucifer and I have been together, and tonight is our fifth date. I know what's going to happen tonight, I'm a little scared, but I need to know if he will still love me.

Of course I lived with him, but I never did any of that with him until tonight. I'm sitting in Sadie's room freaking out; I'm wearing black leggings and my AC/DC shirt.

"Sadie, it goes from my ribs across my stomach and to my right hip, what if it scares him"

"He will love them, stop worrying. Hey, have you been back to your house yet?"

"N-no, I'm not sure I'll ever go back"

"Don't worry; your secret is safe with me"

"Thank you Sadie"

"You're welcome" Sadie replies giving me a hug

Lucifer and I are watching a movie on the couch, I turn to him and climb on his lap pulling off his shirt and kissing him. I kick off my shoes, as does he. I slowly take my jacket off, still a little worried. I grab his hand and lead him to the bed room. He lifts me up and sits me on his lap once he sits down on his bed, he pulls at my shirt but I grab his hand.

"Alice, we don't have to"

"Just, don't look too much"

Lucifer looks at me puzzled until I pull off my shirt, he stares at the scars, then turns and lays me against the bed and kisses the largest scar that runs across my ribs which makes me quietly moan. Lucifer whispers against my skin while kissing every scar he sees while my bra is on.

"I love you Alice, I will never stop, and your scars are beautiful"

After having sex we lay on the bed, tangled around each other, me lying on his chest while our legs are wrapped around one another and his arms are around me.

"Alice" Lucifer whispers "What happened?" he asks as he traces the scars.

"I told you about the cellar, but I never told you about what he did. My father keeps my mother in the house, locked away from everything and everyone; she is skin and bone at this point." As I talk I feel the tears in my eyes and I let them go.

"Uh, she took care of me, loved me but my father, that drunken asshole; whenever he got mad and needed a punching bag he knew where I was, the cellar. He would cut me, beat me, he used whatever was closest to him, usually beer bottles. whatever he wanted really"

"Well, I promised my mom I would get out and I would save her. Only, I was too late, three days ago, I got a letter from her that she mailed to the school so they could give it to me; she told my father it was information about me no longer living there."

"It wasn't, it was a suicide note. She killed herself the night she wrote it the note and sent it, she did it while he was at work and now I will have to do the funeral."

Lucifer held me while I cried, I cried until I couldn't anymore. "I haven't gone back to the house to take my mother's things or to speak with my father, I have a key to the house; I will go tomorrow to get her things but I will never speak to him again."

Lucifer spoke this time, I could hear in his voice that he was crying too. "I will never let anyone hurt you like he did Alice, I promise. I love you"

I kiss him, I get on top of him under the sheets, I grab his hand and place it in my right side where the biggest part of the scar is, I lean down and kiss him; I don't stop until I can't breathe anymore. "I love you too" is all I say before he lays me next to him, still touching the scar as we both fall asleep.