A Siren's Song

Neverland

The night before we go to neverland 

I'd had a shower and was now laying in bed, staring up at the stars that were my ceiling, we had an astronomer map out the stars so the pattern would be almost identical to the great outdoors. 

To be honest, I was terrified about going back to Neverland, seeing pan in his natural environment where he owned the playing field, the lost boys although I never really talked or interacted with them and everything about Neverland, the high tide was coming and I really wasn't looking forward to that, since I'm a few minutes older than dear Lilian, I've come of age, so when it's high tide, I get this craving for a male victim to kill, everyone on Neverland is male.

I fell into that state again where you still remember dreaming in the dawn, I was a siren again, my tail in the water moving back and forth with the water, but when I looked around... I saw them, my family's bodies, floating in the water staining it red, all their faces towards me. I look down into the water and there's more bodies, below the water floating, but my reflection was what scared me, my mouth dripping blood, fangs bared, my eyes glowing blue but I was smiling, my whole torso and hands stained with blood... but my fathers hook, it hung in my hand just a few meters from its owner, his body lifeless, guts torn out floating above the water. I heard screaming and voices in my head, it hurt like someone had stuck a speaker in my head and turned it up as high as it would go " Thea, we loved you like our own child" " oh dearest child, what a curse you have become" and it went on and on til I felt cold icy metal against my cheek.

I woke up to my father sitting there, his hook on my face" it was just a dream love,it can't hurt you" I noticed my hand was shaking a lot, I sat up, he could see I was confused" why is everyone still alive?" He raised his eyebrow and smirked a bit " well love, you didn't exactly try hard to kill us" this wasn't helping, I needed air, Archie maybe? I don't know I was losing my mind. 

I got up, his hook moved from my face to my arm holding me there" what?" He gave me that look saying ' you know what' " love where do you think your going? It's midnight " I motioned for the window but he didn't move " why did the crocodile see you out a few nights ago?" I looked down knowing I had the answer but it look weak as hell " at granny's, i had a similar dream to this one, everyone of you were hanging in a execution podium, you guys kept saying it was my fault, you'd just wanted to help. So I decided to take a walk, and Archie found me, ta da can I open the window now?" His hook still digging into my wrist" and what about this dream?"

 He started tracing my scars from where I cut myself, he was the only one that knew because... when I first started, I wasn't careful and he saw me doing it and he knew why " I was... uh... a siren like normal, but it was high tide, I found all of storybrooke dead around me in the water, the water turned red, I had your hook, I saw your guts ripped out" he looked down " if it helps, my insides are still inside of me" I took his hand " how about we see Archie in the morning before we leave?" I nodded and lied back down staring at the ceiling, my lights went out and he left, cold tears flowed from my eyes in silence, I heard my window open and a black shape creeped in, it had white eyes, they stared at my side then the rest of me " what are you doing here pan?"

 I saw it float closer and touch my shoulder, you knew right now Pan was controlling his shadow, only pan knew where I lived and to touch me without hesitation before I break off his arm" I thought we'd play a game, you let me in your head, I see how to help you, your life becomes a whole lot lighter. You and I both know it's all down here from here love" his voice rang out I my head, I closed my eyes hoping it was one of the voices from the dream.

 I felt the light come on and ice cold metal against my cheek as a tear slipped down my cheek, I had a good idea who it was, but I wanted to show him what the nightmares did to me so I muttered " please... stop... end it... kill me" i felt the metal move from my cheek to my wrist jerking it for me to wake up, I slowly open my eyes " still... just a dream, but we do need to talk" I sat up a little " you said something about the dreams, but there's something you left out isn't there, what aren't you telling me love?" I sighed at looked down, this time he let me" pan was there, behind me, I felt him, heard him but with the siren one, I just saw neverland"  I looked back up " looks like the king wants his queen back" I laughed a little, I'd never thought of it that way "you know what happens if I stay there, my creature changes " he nodded and raised his eyebrows, his eyes couldn't be any wider" ah but you'll be alive love, you'll most likely change from a wolf to a deer,be the doe in all the bucks, but you'll live" I sighed, he wanted me to stay in neverland, for a long time " that will only be if you want to, and until we find this cure, or something to break the curse"

 One of the Legends of sirens is that before we swam the seas, we were land creatures only able to turn into one animal, like a werewolf turns into a wolf, if your a deer, you can become a doe, connect with the spirits, hear the trees, be the camp spiritual leader.

The next morning after talking to Archie 

I overheard a little of their conversation " are you sure this is a good idea killian? pans unlikely going to want to return your daughter to you after her curse is lifted" unlike Archie I knew, under the right circumstances, pan could be persuaded. I walked onto the ship confidently, if these were my last steps outside of neverland, I wanted to make them count. I looked back smiling, for some reason I was happy, I saw grandma and grandpa smiling waving with Henry, we'd already hugged , I'd left him a note saying this was the only way I could live in the world, I was sorry but I wasn't ready to leave, I loved him and that I'd see him again someday.

"What's going through that mind of yours? " I looked back and saw mr gold who had insisted on coming with us saying it was something personal" just what sarcastic remark Pan will have waiting for me" he chuckled knowing full well his father had one for me waiting 

When we arrived

Going through the portal was uh 'fun', I'd always had a hate for small spaces and drops so I went below deck which was a little better but I still felt I was on the wrong roller coaster, I'd managed to change out of my little red dress, and into something a little more woodland like, as in my neverland outfit I had on before. 

As I expected when I got there, my father said he'd sail around a little with my mom, as a parting for a while, lily was still at home and had no idea what was going on, heck, she didn't even know I'd left. She was working a part time job at granny's as a punishment. I walked into the woods and then I heard it " as I said love, Peter Pan never fails" I turned around and he was standing there smiling, I just wanted to hug him so bad but I knew he'd just push me off " you failed keeping me here last time" " oh but I knew you come right back love, to neverland... to me"  I shrugged and smiled "thanks to this place... I'm now a doe" by the look in his eyes, it didn't look like I'd be getting a lot of rest anytime soon " before you meet the lost boys... again, why don't you see where you'll live" I bowed to him which made him laugh, he led on to a row of tree houses " I hope deers know how to climb ladders, this is yours, when they say I'm right next door, I literally... am right next door" he pointed to the tree house next to the one in front of ours, I guessed that was his and looked at the place I would grow to call home.