Gemini

Sixteen

I hopped in the passenger seat of Jayden's car wondering to myself if this was the right decision when he smiled at me

His dimples dug in and it made me think about his brother

Jordan

I was leaving him behind one of the few people in this godforsaken city that showed me any semblance of care

But I couldn't I wasn't ready to be anyone's girlfriend and that's what Jordan wanted

I was done doing what everyone else wanted me to do it was time to do what I wanted to do .

Jayden pulled into a spot twenty minutes later at the train station

Suddenly he was looming over me

"How about a kiss for the road ? I'll show you which Knight brother is the better kisser "

I shrugged him off but he pushed on his lips meeting mine

I felt myself thinking of his brother as he deepened the kiss

It was then that I realized Jayden was forceful and Jordan was gentle

Jayden nipped painfully at my lips whereas Jordan never nipped just softly kissed me

I tried to push him away but Jayden wouldn't budge

When he finally broke the kiss I pulled back stunned

"See I told you I'd show you who the better Knight was "Jayden's satisfied smirk spoke volumes he truly believed he was better then his own brother

"Maybe I'll follow you to Philly blow this city ,help you forget Jordan ever existed

I said nothing as he eyed me

"Thanks for the ride and ticket as soon as I get settled back home I'll pay you back "

Jayden nodded "Anytime sweetness "

I took off to the terminal as fast as my feet would carry me

Once on the train I settled in for the seven hour ride back home .

I must have fallen asleep because I woke up to several missed calls and texts from Jordan as well as a few from Jayden

But of course nothing from dear old mom

Of course not why would she ?

I arrived in Philly a little after six am groggy from sleep as my best friend and cousin Rain picked me up firing off questions as to where my mother was , why I was back and what I was doing

She always was a voice of reason but not this time I needed to be away from Boston and Jordan and whatever emotions that seemed to evoke 

We drove to my aunts house and we snuck in so my aunt didn't call my mother 

I defintiely didnt need to hear her mouth after the train ride and the emotional night I'd just had 

I'd been man handled by the twin of a man I was falling for  

Falling for ?

Hold the fuck on 

Jordan had my heart but when the fuck had that happened 

Holy shit I left when I love him 

what is wrong with me 

It would only end anyway maybe it was the right decision 

How can I love him I barely know him ?

But Jordan was so kind and loving so gentle and genuine with me 

Had I walked out too soon 

And then Jayden 

He'd made it clear he was coming here for me 

I don't want Jayden 

I want Jordan 

No I don't 

Shit what the fuck am I gonna do now ?