You Owe Me (Little Mix Fanfiction)

Chapter 19

Sympathetic looks were thrown nervously around the dim-lit room as I wheeled myself in with the small ball of a seven-year-old curled up on my lap. Her eyes shut before she had to face the room filled with dismal faces. My eyes were watery as I thought of the pain she must be going through. There was no way I would cope if I was in her situation.

I placed myself directly next to the spare bed, opposite Leigh's. Zayn picked up Alicia and placed her down on the bed, careful not to disturb her. She was completely still, besides when her upper body would shake slightly from a small hiccup.

There was small talk, but no one really cared for it. We simply tried to fill the void that was taking over the room. I didn't pay much attention to the voices around me, they simply became white noise in the background, instead I turned myself to the scar on my arm. It was long, fairly deep and not quite properly healed. It reached from just below my elbow, on my inner arm, to just above where all the veins are in my wrist. When it was fresh, it must have been at least half a centimetre deep, if not a whole centimetre.

I traced my finger over my forearm, inwardly hoping that it would simply disappear, along with Inconnu, if I rubbed it long enough, just like some witchcraft. It protruded from my skin like a thumbtack on a chair, it was lumpy and every time I touched it, for some reason, it still hurt. Every second I looked at the scar was another second that I spent blaming Inconnu for everything. For being stuck at this hospital, for Felicity, for the scar. For everything. There was not a single thing that had happened in the past few weeks that I couldn't find some way of blaming Inconnu. Everything was going wrong and it was all his fault. It was his fault that I has this stupid cast on, it was his fault that Leigh lay partially crippled in the bed opposite me, it was his fault that Alicia lay mourning over her sister next to me, it was all his bloody fault. I felt small trickles of tears trace down my face. I hated them but they belonged there. I knew they couldn't stay there forever, but in the moment they felt nice.

The conversation all stopped as the doctor who had been operating on Felicity walked into the room. His expression was quite contradictory. His face was both blissful and grieved simultaneously.

He requested permission to sit, and as I nodded he sat on a chair at the end of Leigh-Anne's bed, opposite Zayn and myself.

The doctor seemed to lose himself in an intense train of thought as we sat silently. There were a couple of seconds of awkward silence before Zayn cleared his throat and the doctor snapped out of his trance.

"Oh yes. Felicity..." He trailed off slightly, trying to find a way to put what he was thinking into words, "There were some... Complications with her surgery. Her heart stopped for nearly ten minutes. We assumed that she was dead, but she is a little fighter that one, and she made it through." It took me a couple of seconds to let what the doctor had said to sink in, Felicity wasn't dead, her heart merely stopped during the surgery. She was alive.

"She is currently in ICU, she will probably be there for the next week at least. I must warn you, when she comes to, she will be barely more than an infant. You will have to teach her to talk, walk and even eat again. She will live, but it will be a struggle. That was all I came to say." With that he up and left.

There was a moment of dumbfounded silence, before I realised that I had to tell the still-sleeping Alicia about Felicity.

I gently shook her, careful not to hurt her, until she woke. Her eyes were foggy from just waking up and she looked at me with innocent confusion. I sucked in a sharp breath before speaking,

"Alicia, the doctor just came to speak to us, and he told us that Felicity is ok. She's in ICU but she is going to be ok." At first she was confused, she looked a me as if I was crazy, and then she realised that I was telling the truth and her face lit up. She beamed from ear to ear and her smile alone lit up the entire room.

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A few days past, each day we would go from Leigh's room to ICU to see Felicity. The first day she wasn't awake, all that was there was the shallow-breathing shell of Felicity. It was quite a gut-wrenching sight. The next day she was awake, but only partially. That was more than enough for Alicia, she was ecstatic to see her sister. The third day she was fairly alert and awake. She managed to stay awake for an entire hour while we were there. Every time she fell asleep we would leave her be, but once she started to stir the nurse would come and get us so that we could be there while she was awake.

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Hey guys,

So sorry I didn't update for far too long and sorry that this is short and kind of pathetic. I will hopefully write again soon and hopefully everyone will get out of the hospital.

Toodles

-T