Why Don't I Write You A Poem

I'm Done Here

Dear all of my teachers,
I did my best, yeah I tried.
When I said I don't care,
Yeah you know that I lied.
I may have failed my classes.
Threatened to kick some asses.
Using duct tape to hold myself together I'm not glass!
Let me fix my glasses.
Take a step back, look at the masses.
The messes, look at the mess I made.
Wanted to call out but I pushed everyone away.

Well,

Dear friends,
Hello again.
I know your mad and I'm sorry that my life had to end
I know it hurts, that this empty feeling is the worst
I've felt it for so long
That this song isn't even wrong,
Cause that feeling was very much prolonged.
Look back at it.
Look back at me.
What more was I than another school kid.
I was trash, gave up before I started.
Hopeless, starting loving every sin.
Why hold onto someone you couldn't believe in?

Dear my dearest sisters,
You know I miss ya.
Even when I'm gone you know I'll listen.
I'm right here <3
I'm right here <3
I'm embedded deep in your heart.
I'm not here.
I'm not near.
Your reality starts to fall apart.

Dear parents,
My momma and my dad,
You were the loyalist shit that I ever had.
Even when I'd mess up and you both would get mad.
Even when I hid away that I was so damn sad.

Dear brother,
You're like no other.
I bet you're wondering why I'm gone aren't ya.
Its truly a tragedy, catastrophe, disaster, see?
Everything that I miss will be better than this.

Oh but,

Dear lover,
I really wanna,
Hold you so tight, sleep by you at night,
But now I'm outta sight
outta mind.
Don't you worry about me babe.
Don't think about the life that you couldn't save.
Wake up tomorrow and see a brighter day.
Don't think about the one who took her life away.

Dear me,
Why can't you see,c
That everyone in this room is standing looking at you?
But you can't look back.
Yeah, they look sad.
What they have to admit wouldn't sit right with them at the table.
They're unstable look at those damn tears, look at what your capable-
Of.

This darkness ain't magic.
How did this all happen.
Why aren't all of them laughing.
Be happy god damn it!
I did this for me, not for you, so suck it!
I lived a cold life and let all of you fuck it!
Go ahead and act like you didn't see it coming.
Blame me for all the shit you said and keep running.

Oh I'm shaking now.
Its just a bottle of pills.
Why can't I take it down?
I have no reason to live.
No one to cuddle up with.
No smiles or tears to share.
So where,
Where do I go from here?
Just keep on going.
Cut a little deeper dear.
You know gods watching.
He's the overseer.
Watching you give up on life.
No he doesn't care.

I hate this!
I hate being hated!
No one hates me, so I hate myself so I can here those;
Menacing dark words,
Pulling me backward,
Forgetting what I heard.
These thoughts I know that are so absurd.

Fear fuels me, but now I'm drowsy.
Couldn't help but to take few Prozac see?
Wouldn't dare to look back at what I could be.
Shouldn't doubt my choice, I'm not happy.

I'm just wasting more of your time,
Trying to find some kind of rhyme,
There's no rythem
These lyrics suck, just forget em.