Have you ever been so afraid of yourself that you start shaking?
Whether or not it's fear or something else, I'm not sure
These voices will lead you to insanity
Deprivation is the best drug
Take the serotonin from my brain
Emotionally I won't feel a thing
Dopamine for a good time?
Take that away, I'll take away my life
Extract the endorphins, they're important
When I need a rush I'll be tired
Maybe schizophrenia isn't just how I've been wired
I'll be the test subject of pills they've never seen
Experiment every night until I finally dream
The blackness of my mind, the void of things to come
I want to rest my anxiety, I must not succumb
What if I stop thinking? Like I'm brain dead? Am I dead?
What if it's not working, this testing is just hurting
I'm immune to the pressure of their words
When I listen to my mind I heard so much worse
Tie a noose around my throat and hang me like an ornament
I'm alright, I'll light up at the torment
Hazy vision, taking drugs,
I cannot get enough
The shadows on the walls
Make thinking really tough
Shut up!
Stop chanting my name!
I'm not crazy! You're crazy!
I know I'm not insane!
They've made me a mattress room for comfort
I must be royalty
They always treat me well with presents
Admire their loyalty!
YOU ARE READING
Why Don't I Write You A Poem
PuisiI write poetry all the time to an empty audience. I don't expect posting it here to be any different but at least I'm putting my work out there.
