NEVER BE THE SAME

Chapter 47

"You should be carefull youngie...", her mom is strocking her hair gently. Dohwan already home to his own apartment. Unwillingly. Because her mom decided to stay over. Of course she didnt tell her mom that Dohwan practically lived here.

"About what mom?"

"About everything...."

Gayoung is looking at her mom, puzzled. "Do you hate Dohwan oppa? I thought you like him..."

"Ani...I like him..", her mom smiles. "He looks like a good man...and apparently he make you happy...", her mom pokes Gayoung's cheek. She can feel happiness radiates from her younger daughter.

"He does...", Gayoung grins.

"That's way I dont want you to hurt him...."

"Why would I hurt him??"

"Because you're still young....you still have a long way ahead of you....", Gayoung still looks at her mom confused. Doesnt understand where this conversation is going. "He seems serious...while I'am glad you've met a good guy...I just dont want you to regret anything later...", Gayoung is trying to process what her mom said.

"But I love him mom...and I am serious too...", Gayoung finally understand that her mom didnt doubt Dohwan, but she doubted her.

"You dont need to convince me Darling...You need to convince yourself...", her mom says wisely. Because she believed that the reason Gayoung didnt tell her about her relationship with Dohwan wasnt just because she didnt know what to do. But because part of her was terrified with his commitment. And Gayoung didnt want to admit it to herself. "If you're not ready...you shouldnt make him think that you are...it's just going to hurt both of you.."

Gayoung stunned with her mom words. She loves Dohwan. A lot. She really does. But does she ready? She does...does she? She starts questioning herself.

"How's Chanyeol?"

"Huh?", Gayoung surprises with her mom's sudden question.

"How did he react hearing this dating rumor..."

"He already knew..."

"Ooh..."

"He freaked out the first time he found out that I have a boyfriend....", Gayoung remembers that day when Dohwan told Chanyeol that he is her boyfriend over the phone. "He thought I couldnt ever get a boyfriend...", Gayoung snorts.

"Of course he did...", her mom chuckles. From Gayoung's reaction, Gayoung's mom know that her daughter still clueless about Chanyeol's feeling to her. Poor Chanyeol, he's a good boy. But being an idol means too much rules. Too much at stakes. Dating not just gonna ruin his career, but the entire member of his group.

"Why did you suddenly ask about him?"

"Nothing...it's been a long time since I met him...jus wondering how he's been..."

"Me too...", she suddenly miss her friend. Should she call him?

"Good night youngie..."

"Night mom..."

Gayoung couldnt sleep. She has a lot on her mind. Everything scrambled like a jumbled mess. Maybe she really should call Chanyeol.

Before she even pick her phone, Gayoung feels her phone buzzing in the bed side table. So she takes it and walks out of the room quietly.

"Yoboseyo...", she picks it up when she already in the living room.

"Hai...do you asleep already?", Dohwan asks.