Embrace The Payne

More Secrets With Harry Styles

Vanessa's POV

It's been three days since I've told Liam. Four day's since I've been diagnosed with a heart tumor. That's the thing, though. I don't feel weaker but I feel sick. Sick knowing that in just ten days I wont be alive. I wont be here. I wont be able to see the guys or my brothers or anyone else.

I'll be dead soon.

And now I have to tell them. All of them. I'm going to have to watch their expressions when I tell them. Every single one of them. Louis was a disaster and so was Liam. I couldn't imagine the others. I take a quick look in the mirror at what I'm wearing.

A pink hoodie, white skinny jeans, grey knee-high boots, a pendant necklace that I had gotten from Niall because he was proud of me for pulling a prank on Louis, and a heart charm--chain bracelet I had gotten from Liam.

I take a deep breath and walk out of Liam's bedroom, downstairs into the living room of his flat where all of the boys are sitting. Louis is on the verge of tears already and Liam is blankly staring at a wall.

"Guys, I have a heart tumor," I say simply. The tears flood down from Louis' cheeks and he looks away from me so I don't see them.

"This is a joke. You've been lying all along!" Liam shouts at me and I wince, taking a step back from where I'm standing. I was hoping he wouldn't act like this.

"What kind of sick game are you playing here? Stop it! JUST STOP!" he shouts in front of me and I feel tears flooding down my eyes as his face softens and he looks at me apologetically. I push him away and stand in front of the three together on the couch.

"I only have ten days left. I'm sorry I didn't tell you before but I couldn't. It was too much," I apologize to them and they all stare at me.

"What?" Zayn blurts out as Niall bursts into tears along with Louis who is now sitting on the floor. I feel my body shaking as Zayn goes into a state where he just stares at me with his eyes wide open.

"Ten days. That's scary, knowing when your going to die," Harry says.

"Well she could pass tomorrow," Louis says, making me laugh. All of the boys stare at me and I smile at them.

"I love you guys and I'm sorry," I say , blinking the tears away because of my now blurry vision. I'm sure my eyes are pink and puffy.

" But you have to let me go.." I say, bursting into tears as I bite my quivering bottom lip. A few tears roll down Zayn and Harry's cheeks but I can hear the sobs from Niall and Louis as I look over and see Liam staring at me.

"We could never let you go," Niall says, biting his lip. I lean down and pull him into a hug along with Louis, kissing his cheek.

"Try to forget me," I say out loud and all of the boys stop making any noise as I stand up, wiping my tears away. " Please?"

"Forget about the tumor. I don't want to spend my last days having you guys worry about when I'm going to drop dead. If you do, your making this worse for me," I say to them and they all dart to their rooms except for Liam and Harry.

"I'll never really be gone," I say quietly and Liam shakes his head, trying to get the tears away but ends up running to his room and slamming the door shut as I sit on the couch next to Harry. He wraps an arm around me and a smile forms on my lips.

"Why are carrots more orange than oranges?" he asks me and I laugh.

"Ask Louis, he probably has a whole diary about it," I shrug and he nods, taking it into consideration.

"How was your life?" he questions me.

"Good. I'm glad I've met all of you," I say and he nods, smiling.