Embrace The Payne

Closer To Another Secret

Niall's POV

"So this week on twitter we have the one and only.. HARRY STYLES!!" Louis cheers, flipping his own hair in the camera and doing a girly thing with his eyes.

Harry shrugs, waving into the camera and walks out of the flat and into the hallway, leaving us alone with twitter. Well, there's three of us but still.

"What was that?" Zayn asks me and I shrug, looking at the camera.

"Coming to you live from a fire place will be our next twit cam. Have a nice day and don't forget to wash your pants," Louis says, turning off the twit cam and closing the laptop as we all stare at each other awkwardly.

I look back at the door and stand up, walking out of the flat before the other lads follow me. I hear talking so I walk down to where the noise is coming from.

I walk into Liam's flat along with Louis and Zayn. We're going after Harry since he just decided to leave our twit cam and do something better.

I don't know what's been up with Harry lately. He hasn't been himself and no one likes it. He's acting really strange.

I bet he's having a hard time dealing with this whole thing about Vanessa dying. I know that we all are. Louis was sobbing his eyes out in his room last night as he had me explain to Eleanor why exactly she couldn't meet Vanessa.

I feel bad for that. We have to lie and say that she has the flu and then I guess when she's gone we'll say that it was worse than we thought.

That's the story.

That's the lie.

That's our life.

It's hard watching someone you love die. A brother, a sister, a friend, family, and I'm sure that's it's just as worse to watch the girl you love die.

Which makes this even harder for people.

It's not fair what is happening but you know what? Life isn't fair either.

Vanessa doesn't want us talking or thinking or crying about this. I know that when she's gone it will be worse. Much worse.

Chaos.

I walk into the room quickly, shoving my hands in my pockets and Zayn walks in right next to me as Louis crawls in like a cat.

I know he's hurting but he's trying to maintain his weird level for everyone so no one will suspect anything of him.

I have to say, he's doing a really good job at this.

"What are you guys doing?" Zayn asks, looking at the three sitting on the floor discussing something. They wave it off like it's nothing and I roll my eyes at that. They were talking about something, obviously.

Harry whispers something to Liam as Vanessa stands up and I raise an eyebrow at him when I see a mad look cross Liam's face.

Out of all the time I've known Liam, he's never been one to get angry at people. He hasn't been himself, either.

Neither has Louis and Vanessa's upset about people being upset.

I haven't paid any attention to Zayn, really. Or myself. Have we all changed?

"You know what Harry?.. STOP IT!" he screams, socking him straight in the face. Harry glares at him already enraged when Louis steps in between them annoyed with their behavior.

"Want to know what he said about her?" Liam asks all of us and I look around the room. I look back to him, raising an eyebrow and he gives me a confused expression as he takes a look as well, noticing Vanessa is gone.