secrets of a small town girl (one direction)

~the movies

I dressed myself In my favourite high waisted skinny jeans and my superman tshirt, with a navy blue hollister hoodie ontop, I decided to give my Nike hightops a break and put on my forest hill adidas trainers. I let my hair air dry so it was all curly I put on a slight touch of makeup but not too much. I turned my phone on just incase anyone tried to contact me. I really hated people going through the things on my phone, i had a lot of personal stuff on there, and things that mean a lot to me, pictures of me and my sister before she moved away before things got complicated, me and Becky before i moved i didnt realise how much i missed her until she called me, she had been through so much because of me, i would never be able to repay her for all shes done for me. Even now after all ive put her through she was still prepared to involve herself again just to protect me. She was my best friend, but now Mel is my best friend things have really changed over the past few weeks, a lot has happened, ive done things im not proud of and met some amazing people who have kindly let me into their lives, if Matty really is going to come and find me i needed to tell Harry the whole story but i was at a high risk of losing him if i did, i just dont think i can handle loosing anyone like him right now it would push me over the edge. Just then the doorbell rang it was Josh and Drake,followed by Melody. 

"ya ready" Mel asked.

"yep, lets go" i said as we all walked down to the cinema as none of us had our license yet and judging by the way i ride a bike its a blessing i cant drive.

We decided to go and see ted, because the trailers were really funny. i sat inbetween Mel and Josh which i thought would be awkward after him just finding out im not as available as he had suposedly hoped. he turned to me and said

"look i need to tell you something, its been bothering me since yesterday, i need to get it off my chest" 

"sure you can tell me just about anything" i said a little cautious

"well yesterday i know i seemed a little weird with Harry but i was just a little shocked i didnt know you two knew each other, i just need to know are you going out with him" he said keeping his eyes fixed on the ground the entire time.

"yeah i am im sorry i didnt tell you, i should have mentioned it, i just wasnt sure if it was what was best for me right now so i didnt want to tell everyone for things to go tits up five minutes later" i said

"i understand i just hope he treats you right i meant what i said your amazing and deserve to be happy with someone, do you think hes the one" he asked still not making any eye contact

"i dont think there is such thing as the one, i used to but a lot of the things i used to believe in lead me down the wrong path, im trying to take things slow im just afraid of getting hurt this time it could really brake me" i said, 

"well you know if anything ever happens you can always talk to me, tell me anything really im happy to help" he said smiling

"thanks" i said. Josh was really easy to talk to and i knew he was the kind of guy you could trust with your life, but im not a trusting person at the moment im a closed book.

The film was amazing we had to tell Drake to shut up a few times, because he pretty much talked throught the entire movie,i was starting to realise he was incredibly annoying.

We all said our goodbyes and me and Mel went back to my house as she was staying over, its going to take all my strength not to blurt anything out about Niall, but i couldnt help thinking thats not all im not telling her.