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cats in the cradle

Yoongi-
I get up and leave. I can't let them know how much it effects me. I go to my car. I can see Jungkook coming after me. I let him in. I light a cigarette. I let out a puff of smoke before I break out into tears. I cover my face with my hands.
God I'm so fucking stupid. I should have never though Jimin could like someone like me. How could he? He's top student, graduating early, going to Juilliard, his body is perfect, and he has a golden personality. Why would he like me. I'm a year behind, cigarette addictive who's going no where with his life. Honestly, I'm so stupid for believing he'd like me back.
"Yoongi, it's okay," Jungkook says. He rubs my arm. "It's just hickeys. It could mean anything."
I let out a loud sob. "That's such a lie!" I take another puff. "Who knows who he did What with?"
"Maybe it was just Jin, it doesn't mean anything," he says.
"I told him I liked him," I say. He's quiet, so I continue. "We kissed and I told him I like him. He told me to be careful and not to fall for him. He warning me this would happen!"
There's a knock at the window. Namjoon climbs into the back. "I can't believe him. He's a fucking whore," Namjoon says.
"Namjoon!" Jungkook scolds. "Don't say that!"
"What? He has no idea what he did! You saw those marks, they're fucking dark."
"I know," I cry.
"You don't even know who it is. You don't have anything to be upset about, Yoongi," Jungkook says. "He isn't your boyfriend. And it probably didn't mean anything."
The door opens again. Hoseok slides in next to Namjoon. "Holy fuck," he breathes. "Taehyung and Jimin are full on screaming at each other. Apparently, he slept with Joshua and now they're back together."
"The guy who made Jimin almost kill himself?" Jungkook says.
I hit my head against the steering wheel, making it honk. "Oh my god. I've lost him."
"Yoongi, it's okay. He's going to be moving away. Joshua and him will have to break up," Jungkook says.
"Unless he kills himself first," I say. "I'd rather not have him then he be with that prick."
"We all do. But until someone talks some sense into him, we can't do much," Hoseok says.
The door opens. "Baby, what happened?" Hoseok asks. Taehyung sits on his boyfriends lap. "Jimin slapped me." He holds his pink cheek. Not too much damage, but there will be a bruise.
"What?" Namjoon asks. "Where is he now?"
"He went to his next class," Taehyung says. "He's lucky I didn't hit back. I would've beaten his ass."
I lean against my chair. "He's really dating Joshua?"
Taehyung sighs. "I'm sorry. I really wish it weren't true. I'll tell Jin, hopefully he can do something about it."
"Fuck. It's not our job to baby sit him," Namjoon says. "Some people have to learn the hard way."
"The hard way is him killing himself," Taehyung says. "I'd rather not lose my best friend."