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I Fought The Law

Jimin-
I feel nervous. Why? I don't know. I love Yoongi. Why should I be nervous? Taehyung is pacing too. Jungkook is on the couch. We are just waiting for the boys to come. We are in Taehyung's house. His mom wants pictures before we go to dinner.
"Why am I so nervous?" I ask.
"Because Yoongi is going to come and see you all dressed up for him and he's gonna wanna fuck you," Taehyung says. He fixes his duck yellow tie. I have a lilac tie and Jungkook has baby blue.
"Please don't talk like that about my cousin. I'd prefer not to have those images in my head," Jungkook says.
The doorbell rings. Taehyung screams. He holds his chest. "Fuck." Mrs. Kim opens the door. "Come in boys."
The three boys shuffle in. They are all looking so handsome. I look at Yoongi. He's so hot. His tux seems a little big. He looks at me with his mouth open.
Taehyung squeals and jumps onto Hoseok. "Let's skip prom. We can just go to my room." He kisses his neck.
Hoseok grins. "No, Tae. We gotta go. Only for a while."
Yoongi takes My hand. "You look very beautiful," He says quietly. We walk out to Yoongi's car.
"Thank you. You are fucking hot in a suit," I say. "Prom sex will be happening."
Yoongi laughs. "Okay, just make sure you don't get pregnant. You got a college to go to in two month."
I get in the passenger seat. "I know. I promise I won't," I smile brightly.
We drive to dinner. There's a lot of other kids from our school with their dates or groups of friends. I sit next to Yoongi and Namjoon at a circular table. We all order our food. Taehyung talks about a class he'll be taking next year. It makes my heart sink a little. I don't get to enjoy all four years of high school. I'm graduating in a month. I am leaving all of my friends and family. The rest of the boys will still see each other.
We all eat our food generally quickly. I can't finish mine since it's such a big meal. We all pay for our own meals. We get to prom a little late. We go in and everyone is dancing. They already crowned king and queen. It's someone I don't care about.
Our group stays on the outside. Taehyung and I dance when all the other boys leave to get drinks. It's a very seductive song. Taehyung and I grind on each other. His face is glowing and his smile shines brightly. I love him so much. I'll miss him so much.
"I think Hobo is getting jealous," he says over the music.
I look back at our boyfriends. They're standing on the side with small pouts. I laugh and wrap my arms around Tae's neck. "They'll have to get used to being second best."
"Spin!" Taehyung says. He holds my hand and spins me around
I laugh and spin him. I hug his torso. I live moments like these.
The song stops and a slowly song starts playing. I let go is Taehyung. Yoongi comes over and offers his hand. I take it and we go to our own little world. His hands on my waist. My head rests on his shoulder and my arms on his biceps. The move slowly to the song.
"I love you," I say.
I feel him breath out. "I love you too." His heart is fast. I listen to the beat of it. He kisses my head.
I don't want to leave him. He's become a huge factor in my life. Can I live without him? We have different futures. His here, mine in New York. How could we have a future together? My heart falls as I think of this. I'll leave him. We'll break up. He'll forget me. I will miss him. He's going to find a good boyfriend and marry him. I'll probably get into an abusive relationship knowing me. If I see him, will he remember me?
I feel a tear slip down my cheek. I bury my head on his suit jacket. We stop moving. "Minie?" Yoongi asks quietly. He pulls away. "Sweets, what's wrong?"
I hover my mouth with my hand trying to keep back the ugly sobs. I cry fat tears. He looks at me concerned. He takes me to sit down. His hand rubs my knee soothingly.
"Jimin, what's wrong?" He asks.
"I don't want you to marry a good boyfriend," I cry.
He looks at me shocked. "Baby, I'm dating you..."
"I don't want us to break up," I sob. "I love you so much. I don't want to leave without you. I just want you. I don't want you to break up with me. I don't to forget."
He hugs me. "I won't break up with you if you don't want me to. I'll always be there. I'll wait until you graduate. Maybe we can live somewhere close. I just need to be near Auntie and Jungkook." He wipes my eyes. "I promise."
I smile. "Really?"
He nods. "I'll wait."
I kiss him passionately. "Fuck, I love you Min Yoongi." He smiles sweetly.
The song ends so we go back to our friends. They're all having fun with their boyfriend and each other. I try to forget about leaving for now. What matters is this moment. Right now.