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Tracks Of My Tears

Jimin-
My head is buried in his aide. I kiss him. His pale skin shines in the sunlight. I move myself so I can see his face. I brush his hair out of his face and kiss his chin.
"Yoongi, it's time to get up," I say. My voice is raspy.
He groans. He stretches out. Hickies are littered on his chest and down to his lower stomach. "What time is it?" He asks.
"Ten," I say. "We have three hours."
He sighs. "I suppose we should get up then," he mumbles. He sits up and looks at me. His hand runs through my hair. "Beautiful."
I smile. "I love you."
Yoongi smiles sadly. "I love you too baby." He pulls me onto his lap even though neither of us are dressed. We didn't bother last night. It was our last night together. He kisses my lips. "How are you feeling?"
"Tired," I say. I let out an uneven breath. "I'm scared." My voice trembles.
"Jimin, don't cry. We have three hours together," Yoongi says. He wipes any tears that fall. "You don't gotta be sad. We will talk still. I'll always love you. Even miles apart, I'll always want you."
I hug him tightly. "What if it's not as good as I want it to be? What if I miss you too much?"
Yoongi shakes his head. "Don't let me get in the way of you enjoying college. Promise me you won't."
I nods. "I promise. But you have to answer my calls."
"Of course, sweets." He kisses my collar bone. "We should get dressed. You have a flight to get ready for."
I sigh and nod. We get dressed and get breakfast with Jungkook and Auntie. They are both quiet. They know today is the day and The is very emotional for the two of us. Auntie gives me a big hug and a kiss before we leave to go to my house. Both of my parents are in the living room. Yoongi and I spend three hours in my bed sharing kisses and soft touches. Almost all of my belongs are packed up. It's depressing to see my childhood things all gone. But even if I stayed I'd be moving. My parents are getting a divorce and are selling the house.
At three the four of us climb into the car. I get checked in and get rid of my checked luggage. We go to the waiting area where I have to wait until my gates called. Yoongi's head rests on my shoulder, my mom is crying, and my dad is trying to keep himself together.
"Jimin!"
I turn around.
Taehyung, Hoseok, Jin, Jungkook, and Namjoon are running towards us. I smile and let out a sob. Taehyung runs to me and knocks me over. He's crying, a lot. I manage to sit up, he sits on my lap. His arms crush my waist. My best friend since childhood. I'm leaving him.
"I love you so much Jiminie," Taehyung cries. "I'm going to miss you so much. I promise to text everyday."
I hold onto him. "I love you too. I'll try to come holidays and your birthday. Maybe I'll come for graduation."
He smiles. "I'm going to miss you, Park Jimin." He kisses my nose.
"I'll miss you too Taehyungie."
We get up. I hug all of the other boys. Jin and Jungkook are sobbing. Jin talks about how he's raised me so well so it's like seeing a child move away. Jungkook tells me how he's grown to like me so much. Namjoon wishes me luck and Hoseok gives me a bone crushing hug.
"Flight 1427 to New York," the announcement rings.
I cry. Taehyung hugs me again. He kisses my cheek and tells me how much he loves me. I give my parents a hug. I turn to Yoongi. He's covering his face with his hand. I move his hand and kiss him long and lovingly. His tears taste salty and sweet. I find myself bawling.
"I love you," I say.
"I love you. Call me when you get there," Yoongi says. "Take pretty pictures for me."
I sob. "I will. I'll see you soon."
He nods. We separate. I wave goodbye to my family and friends. Half of them are crying. Half late people I met just in the last few months. I live all of them. I'll miss all of them. I grab my carryon and board the plane. I get a window seat and sit next to a young couple. I plug in my headphones. My phone vibrates.

Yoongs🥰😍
I love you.
I'll see you soon.
Have a good time at college
I'll visit
You'll visit
We can do this
I love you

I smile.

I love you too