twilight ( jasper Hale)

a new world.

You know that odd feeling of not being quite awake. It's like j.m Barrie said "You know that place between sleep and awake, that place where you can still remember dreaming"

But this time it wasn't as though I had been dreaming, it was as though everything back when I had first met Jasper made perfect sense and now I was waking up into a world where I could no longer belong in.

"Hey love, you're eyes are so beautiful" I opened my eyes as I felt the cold brush of a hand on my head coaxing me out of my world and back into my reality.

I looked at Jasper almost blankly, the memories of him, he looked older than when we had first met all those years ago. The life that we never got to live, the life that we should have shared together was gone in the blink of an eye.

"How old are you?" I asked and he furrowed his eyebrows and pulled up a chair beside my bed. He took one of my hands and wrapped both of hid around it and gently placed a cold kiss to my knuckles.

"I was bitten at 21" he stated huffing slightly but not at me.
My heart sank and tears seemed to flow freely down my cheeks. I gasped slightly alarming Jasper.

"Hey, hey what's wrong" he sat on the side of my bed and nussled his head into the crook of my neck as my panick attack stopped.
"I feel like I'm living a lie, this shouldn't be us" I cried as jaspers arms tightened around me bringing me into his chest.

"We should have watched our daughter grow up and we should have watched her get married and have kids of her own, we should have been the best grandparents in the entire world, we should have grown old together and been burried together... all those things we'll just never have... why do we have to be this... frozen" I let everything out as Jasper simply listened.

Jasper captured my lips in an almost painful kiss. It wasn't painful physically but mentally it was excruciatingly sad. We clung to eachother as if we were afraid that one of us would disappear.

"I will kiss you until you remember that we've still got eachother out of all odds we've still survived" Jasper rested his forehead against mine.

"I was saving this for your birthday but I think you need it now" Jasper took out a small piece of slightly yellow paper from his wallet and opened it up.

"It was taken about a week before you died, we we're  so happy that day" Jasper rested his chin on my head as we both started down at the old photo of the three of us smiling and holding our week old baby girl.

"I know I can remember" I laughed thinking back on the wonderful memory.

"Okay now you three look at me" the photographer laughed as our little girl who we hadn't named yet, squealed with delight in my arms.

"Hush little one, be good for your daddy" Jasper took her little hand and she curled her tiny figures around his pinky.
"I love you" jasper stated as I looked at him and he gazed back at me, this is a moment I never want to forget ever.

"Okay major whitlock, the photo will be ready sometime next week" the kind man said as he waved us goodbye.

"How did you afford that Jasper?" I asked him, officers don't always get as much money as they should.

"Well actually, I've been given a good pay increase" he smirked.

"Since when?" I questioned and he laughed.
"Since nine months ago, that's why we went on that little honeymoon and that where we conceived"

"Jasper shush people will hear" I giggled as we walked in the front door of our little cottage.

"Such a beautiful memory" Jasper stated. Jasper kissed the exposed part of my coller bone. His lips ice cold creating goosebumps on the exposed part of skin.
"And I still love you" he laughed softly reciting the memory that was forever etched into our brains.
"And" Jasper titled my head backwards to that he could attatch his lips to mine in a much overdue kiss. His arms slithered around my stomach as he still sat with his chest my my back. I just couldn't seem to get enough of his kisses.
"And I most certinatly remember the honeymoon evening, we barely slept" he moaned into the kiss but we were abruptly disturbed when somebody cleared their throat.

I turned around to see that it was Carlisle holding a rather large needle. I gulped as I could only imagine that it was for me.

"What's going on?" I asked as Jasper returned to his solum self.
"How long was I out for?" I said suddenly remembering the events prior to my collapse.

Carlisle sighed and gracefully sat down on the bed as Jasper stood beside me stroking my head with a worried look.
"Your powers are simply to strong for your human body to withstand the amount of energy they produce" I nodded nudging him to go on.

"These episode will only continue to grown more and more, if we don't intervene-

"You mean this could kill me" I looked at Jasper who could not make eye contact with me.
"Much worse, it could kill both of you" I looked at Carlisle stunned my whole world caving in slowly. I looked to Jasper who had his back to me and his arms folded as I trying to shut me out.

"Jasper what does he mean? Please stop shutting me out? I can't deal with you shutting me out all the time!"

Jasper turned around his eyes stone cold and emotionless. This wasn't Jasper this was my major.
"Apparently meeting me triggered your powers into overdrive, I'm the reason you could die, Jasper can't deal with the thought that this might be because of him so he pulled me out instead"  I sighed banging the bed furiously and let out a frustrated grunt as my hand harshly hit the mattress.

"What the hell is going on!?" I looked at Carlisle and then to the needle.

"This is Jasper venom, we've diluted it with antibiotics, I believe that a small amount of it will keep your powers at bay at least for a couple of days until we can administer another small amount of jaspers venom but it wouldn't be a large enough dose to have any affect on your DNA basically you'd still be human."

The major nodded his head in agreement. This was the best thing I could to to keep us both safe then I should do it.
"I'm not going to lie to you Ella this isn't going to be pleasant at all" I nodded as Rosalie, Emmett, Edward, Alice, Alex and Esme all entered to room.

"What's going on?" I asked Carlisle and again even the major wouldn't look at me this time.

"We are going to have to hold you down"