twilight ( jasper Hale)

I need your love

"I don't care" jasper whispered, his forehead resting on mine. I was confused. What does he mean? He seemed so caring before.

"I don't care if they tear me limb from limb and throw my body in a pit of fire... I don't care if they all hate me.... I don't care about being a monster anymore" I wanted to console him so much but my heart trembled at the thought of not seeing him again. The thought of losing him was just to much. I opened my eyes, to see his golden orbs, desperately staring back at mine.

"You are my beauty and I am your beast" jasper breathed out. It was only a whisper but still my human ears however inferior to his vamparic ones, picked up on the small but loving sentence.

Jasper, still with his forehead against mine, rose his hands to either side of my head cupping them gently.
A pained expression passes sadly across his porcelain features. I wish I knew what he was thinking. Or even just a glimpse into the pain, to be able to help him.

"You have the same look... every time" he spoke, almost spitting out the words like the memory was filth.
I gently placed my hands over his elegantly ragged ones.
"This is how it always starts... you have to promise me you won't do anything stupid".
Jasper looked into my eyes, his eyes desperate and almost frightened.

"Have you started to get your memories back?" He asked and I assumed he meant the memories of our past lives together.
"Well a few things like this necklace you gave me and a couple of flashes and dreams but nothing much I don't even know who I was back then or how we met or our first kiss" I said as he nodded looking much happier than before.

"It looks like we found each other much earlier than last time" he smiled gazing into my eyes. A smirk suddenly graced his porcelain features and I looked at him confused, I had never seen this side of him, was he finally opening up to me.

Jasper leant in close, just so his lips and breath were right beside my ear and with a breathy voice and a slight devilish tone he whispered the most alluring sentence I had ever heard.

"We did more than just kiss back then, ma'am" his lips slightly touched  my ear as his hot breath fanned down my neck.
"Dance with me princess?" Jasper pulled me up by waist and held me as close to him as possible. Our bodies molded together as if we were two puzzle pieces that had been magnetically pulled together. Jasper placed one hand on my waist, filling the small gap between us. Then placed his other hand in mime, retaining our fingers.

A soft melody of Edwards piano rang out from downstairs.
Jasper smiled as his eyes never left my face.
" what?" I laughed as he chuckled along with me. I don't think I've been so happy. It's like I've been sleeping my whole life and suddenly for the first time my eyes were wide open and ready fro anything as long as it was with him.

"Your face... It's your face" Jasper smiled as he traced my bottom lip carefully.
"You have no idea how long I've waited for you" he said his eyes flickering to my lips and then back to my eyes.

"I'm sorry I kept you waiting" I chuckled.
"But you kept me waiting too" I said and batted my eyelashes.
Jasper laughed and then smirked.
"My apologies ma'am" his thick southern accent prominent.

"Jasper?" I questioned. Jaspers while posture seemed to stiffen ever so slightly and his eyes became almost black.

"You didn't forget about me did you?" I looked up shyly as Jasper or rather the major smirked down at me. 
"I couldn't possibly forget about you major" I said as he scooped me up in his arms and laughed as I secured my arms around his shoulders.
"I've missed you so much much... My Ella, our Ella"

Jasper had come back. The major had gone back to his small space as Jasper used to call it.
"But I'm a monster, how could you ever love a monster like me? Ella you could do so much better than me" Jasper face became pain stricken and it sent an ice cold shiver down my spine.

"Hey, please let's not worry about anything right now. Let's focus on dancing and being together again. It feels like an eternity since I've danced" I said pressing my head firmly to his chest hear absolute silence. 

Jasper wrapped me up in a bear hug as he hummed with the skin to skin contact.
"It has been an eternity for me.... It... It was s-so hard... so.... damn... hard" jaspers voice began to break. I looked up into his eyes as tears gathered. Tears that were not able to fall, a frozen pain that I simply couldn't imagine how torturous it must have been to find me so many times only to lose me over and over again.

"I felt like giving up so many times" he sounded so fragile so tired.
"But then I met... i met Alice and alex" Jasper smiled down at me as if he was remembering a good memory.
"And they taught me their ways... But then the moment my existence had a meaning was when Alice told me that you had been reborn" I sat down on my bed as Jasper continued with his head laid on my chest.

"I searched everywhere for you, but I didn't need to... You found me" Jasper leant his forehead against mine.

"Do I have permission to kiss you ma'am?" I giggled as jaspers arms tugged on the shirt around my waist pulling me down to eye level with him.

I smiled as his eyes travelled down to my lips and then back up to my eyes. Our lips were centimetres apart. I could feel his mint cold breath fan across my face--

"Ella! I'm comming in!" Charlie stood on the other side of my bedroom door.
"Uhh" Jasper moaned as he rushed out of my bedroom window.

Charlie open the door with his eyes closed.
"It's fine dad I'm decent" I said.
"Alright, I just wanted to check everything was okay, I heard voices?" Charlie questioned me with his eyebrows raised.

"Nope, there's nobody up here" I glanced around the room to make sure Jasper hadn't left anything behind. Good he hadn't.

"Okay then... well goodnight" Charlie awkwardly retreated out of the room as fast as he possibly could.

"Damn" I said looking out of the open window.

Great now I look like a tomato. Thankyou Jasper.