twilight ( jasper Hale)

lonely

Bellas pov (thought I should change it up a bit)

I would be lying if I said everything was fine. Me and Edward we're fine it's not really anything to do with that. Ella and Jasper well, they're not so fine. It's been weeks since they last spoke to eachother. Ella just seems to be in a bit of a day dream at the moment, almost as if she's not living in the real world anymore. Jasper, well of what Edward tells me jaspers not doing so good either. Jaspers hunting but only just he hasn't spoken to anybody and mostly keeps himself to his room. On the odd occasion he'll take a walk in the woods for a few hours but that's it.

Charlie's worried about Ella, we all are.
On a more positive note Edward is taking me and Ella (it'll get her out of the house) to play baseball. Apparently there's going to be a thunder storm tonight although I don't quite understand why they need the thunder to play baseball, don't you just hit the ball with a bat?

I looked out the window as I was grabbing my baseball cap and saw Ella coming out from the forest with her note book. Ella's been doing that alot lately since Jasper just seems to be unable to cope with being around her, the major just seems to come forward and although we all know that both the major and Jasper love her equally, the major just simply can't show her the love that she needs right now. Ella's in a vulnerable state right now, she's confused, she's not eating, forgetting about school, disappearing into the forest just stuff that's not like her.

Like, I offered her a bacon and ketchup sandwich this morning and I even had it out on the kitchen bench, she took one look at it and just left.

"I'm home!" Ella yelled out.

I rush down the stair to see her dumping her rucksack over the banister and stuff her drawing book into the side of it.

"You seem happier?" I asked cautiously. I didn't want to set her off into a bad mood again.

Ella looked up at me as I came down the stairs and smiled.

"Yer, I am. I do feel happier, I guess that the fresh air for you" I hugged her gently as we sighed into eachother shoulders simply holding one another. We did this once in a while when things seemed a little over welming, I guess it's a twin thing.
Ella sniffed and whipped her eyes as a few tears started to fall.

"Your not happy are you" I stated holding her at arms length trying to get her to look at me. Once she did, she broke her heart.
"I'm trying, I'm trying so damn hard... but... but everytime I find something to do as soon as the distractions gone... I start thinking about him... what did I do wrong? Why does he hate me!?"

Ella's pov

I cried on the staircase with Bella dimly holding me for what felt like hours and it probably had been hours. My mascara however little I applied in the morning was now drenched and lined all over my face. My cheeks bright red and blotchy.

I stood in the mirror hating myself, I was going to have to face Jasper sometime but I look like absolute he'll and I've only got ten minutes before baseball with the Cullens and Bella.
I took a cotton pad and drenched it in make up remover and took off everything not bothering to reapply any foundation. If Jasper still loves me then he should love me as I am blemishes and all.

"Come on ella it's time to go" Bella came up behind me and placed a baseball cap on my head and pulled my ponytail through the small opening.

"There! Now you really look like a proper American" Bella stated as we headed downstairs.
"Hey dad we're just off to play baseball with the Cullens we'll be home before ten" I popped my head round to see Charlie transfixed to the tv screen as of course the football was on.

"Hey okay but you have to be back by ten or I'm comming to get you myself!" He shouted through his eyes not leaving the tv screen as he took a swig of beer. I giggled and walked out the door closing it behind me.
I heard Bella laugh and Edward laughed they were having a great time together just simply being with eachother.

"I'm sorry" I jumped slightly as a hand came to rest gently on my shoulder behind me. I quickly turned around to see Jasper standing behind me holding onto another helmet. I looked behind his to see he had drove his motor bike here instead of taking one of his brothers cars.

"I know I can't fix things, or what I've done but will you give me another chance to start again... with you, nobody else matters anymore, without you my life is meaningless and hollow. But just having you near me make me feel human again, you make me feel as though I could cry and laugh and beat somebody up all at once... but The point is that I can feel love and hope, it radiates off of you like a beacon and I flock to you like a moth... I love you, please let me take you to baseball don't get in Edwards car"