suicide angel || 5sos, 1d

Nine

Destiny's POV

It was 9:30 p.m. and the boys went out to talk to their manager. They left me with Michael and Ashton. I was currently in Niall's room, playing my guitar.

As I was playing, I was thinking of my day so far. It hasn't been 24 hours, and I had revealed a bit to much to both Ashton and Niall. All I've done was cry and make a fool out of myself in front of the other lads. God, I hope they don't think I would be like that all the time. Today was a pretty bad day for me. On the bright side, next week is my 14th birthday. Wow, 14. I feel old. Honestly, I hope they won't do anything for my birthday. Who are they going to invite since I have no friends? Gee, that sad. Oh wait, I have Rose! Stupid me.

After 20 minutes of playing, I stopped and decided to go out to the living room. Before leaving his room, I carefully placed it on the bed, making sure it doesn't fall over.

Michael was playing on his x-box and Ashton was sitting next to him playing on his phone. "Hey kiddo." Michael said, still focused on the TV screen. "Hi. What are you playing?" The game looked really violent and was bloody, which I liked. "Gears of War. I'm going to play Fifa now. Want to play with me?" he said, taking the disk out of his game system. "Yeah sure. Let me just get my phone." I ran back to Niall's room and searched for my phone. I quickly spotted it lying on his bed with my earphones still connected to it.

Once I found my phone, I pressed the play button and put my right earphone on, leaving the other hanging. 'Sirens' by Cher Lloyd came on. "Okay, I'm back." I said taking a seat next to Michael.

"So you know how to play right?" he asked. I nodded my head and grabbed a controller that was lying next to me. "Good. Just letting you know, I am an expert on this game." He bragged. "We'll see about that." I smirked.

1 Hour Later

20 rounds later, we decided to stop. I won every round with a total of 20 points. Michael, well he only had 0, of course. "How did you even win all of them? Are you a wizard?" he gasped.

"Yes, I will turn you into a frog." I said laughing. "Oh no! Please." he begged. "Too late!" I pretended to zap him and he fell on the couch.

"Ribbit ribbit." I laughed and laughed until my stomach hurt. "Oh gosh you're so weird." I sighed. He went to the restroom and I laid on the couch.

"Hey Ash. What time is it?" I asked. "Um.. 10:30" he said yawning. I made myself comfortable on the couch and went on my playlist. I clicked 'night songs' and locked my phone. The first one that came on was 'Not like the Movies' by Katy Perry. It helped me sleep a lot.

I closed my eyes and before I knew it, I fell asleep.

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Niall's POV

"You got it all down lads?" Simon said. We nodded lazily. It was freaking 10:30 pm and we were so tired. Why can't he just let us go home now?

"Excellent. Rehearsals start tomorrow." He said excitedly. We groaned and he quickly hushed us. "Now, you are free to go." We dashed out the door and too the car.

"I'll drive." Luke offered. I thanked him and sat on the passenger seat. Once everybody piled in, he started the car and drove off.

We finally arrived home and we tiredly got out the car. I opened the door to the house and saw bodies lying everywhere. Michael was on the floor, Ashton was asleep on the sofa and Destiny lied there peacefully on the couch. I turned off the tv, since they left it on and woke up the lads.

"Wake up." I said, lightly kicking Michael on his ribs. "Hmm, what?" he slurred. "C'mon it's time to go now." Calum said. Just then Ashton started waking up.

Finally, after about 5 minutes the 4 boys left only leaving us and Destiny. "Where is she going to sleep? She can't stay on the couch." Liam said. "I'll take her to my room." I offered. They scattered to their room as I tried waking up Destiny. "Hey, wake up." I shook her should lightly to see if she would wake up.

Damn, she's a heavy sleeper. I carried her bridal style, with her phone and earphones still on her, carefully to my room. She snuggled into my chest. She's actually really light, lighter than I expected.

I laid her on my bed and put the blankets over her body to keep warm. Then, I carefully took off her earphones from her and placed them and her phone on the nightstand next to her. I was about to leave when she said, "Wait. Don't leave. Stay." Her eyes were still closed but I knew she was awake. She turned her body the other way, gripping on blankets. I took off my shoes and pants and put on sweatpants, since it was cold today and left my shirt on. I climbed into bed with her and went under the blankets.

"Niall?" she said opening her eyes.

"Yes."

"Can I show you something? Only Zayn and Ashton know. I want to tell the other lads too, I just don't know when the right time is. I don't want to keep secrets anymore." she quietly said.

Destiny's POV

I wanted to tell all the lads about my background. All the self harming, the abuse, the bullying, everything. I just wanted to get if off my chest. They were going to find out sooner or later anyways. Might as well tell them now.

"Niall?" I said.

"Yes."

"Can I show you something? Only Zayn and Ashton know. I want to tell the other lads too, I just don't know when the right time is. I don't want to keep secrets anymore."

He sat up and said, "What is it?" I sat up myself, turning on the lamp and sighed. I rolled up my sleeves like I did earlier with Ashton. "What?..." He examined my scars and cuts carefully, making sure he doesn't hurt them.

"Why?" He looked me straight in the eyes. His bright blue eyes were filled with tears and sadness. I told him about everything that I told Ashton, except the bullying part since he already knows that.

"I'm... I'm so sorry Destiny." he wiped his tears with his shirt. "I will never do such a thing to you." he said. "Thank you. That... that means a lot to me." I said. He engulfed me in a hug, I tensed up a bit, but I gladly returned to him. "Let's get some rest." he said. I turned the lights off and yawned. I laid head on Niall's shoulder, he was really warm and he smelled like mint, which was my favorite scent. The last thing I heard before falling asleep, was "Goodnight princess." from Niall.

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next week is her birthday and 4 yEARS OF ONE DIRECTION

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i wrote this like a week before july 23 i think and iT DIDNT WAANT TO UPLOAD MY WATTPAD IS BEING SO STUPID IDK WHY THOUGH BUT YEAH IM WRITING THIS LIKE 1 OR 2 WEEKS AFTER JULY 23 OKAY