God's Plan | Taennie

Part 15

Jennie's P.O.V.

"Jennie, look, I'm really sorry. How many times do I have to repeat it for you to understand?!" I kept hearing Jisoo say, desperately knocking on my bedroom door.

"Jennie, please stop being so rude", Rosé said promptly. "Be happy for Jisoo, even if the rest of us have to make a serious effort. Do you care about your unnie, at least a bit?"

"I agree with Rosé unnie", Lisa said, starting to lose patience. "After all, Jisoo unnie and Jin oppa got married because they loved each other, but the decision of moving wasn't theirs. So please just try to be understanding to her. It isn't easy for any of us, but we have to respect the decision if we want our unnie to be happy."

All three of them were right, but I didn't want to listen. I covered my ears and cried more, starting to see everything around me in blur, and feeling my tears roll down my cheeks and land on my big, pouffy, white pillow. I was just sick of doing this. What did I ever do wrong, that my love life's destiny is to play a double role? I have to be Jennie, and I also have to be this weird Sooyoung girl that my stupid brain made up. And now I end up living in the same house as the guy I love, and doesn't love me back. I mean, he does...in a way...but not really. He loves me as Sooyoung, not as Jennie. Whenever Sooyoung is around him, he acts all nice and sweet, compliments her, and shows all of his love to her. But whenever Jennie is around him, he acts all like an ignorant jerk, as if I only existed for him to downgrade me. What is so bad about me that he can't love me?!

I squeezed my pillow till I could feel my hand muscles get hard as rock, and my veins pumping the blood as if it was my last day to live. 

"Leave!" I shouted at the girls, getting all sick of the situation already. "I'm not gonna unlock the damn door, so stop wasting your time!"

"Jennie, please", Jisoo insisted, her voice cracking. I suddenly heard she started breathing heavily, and I heard her back brush against the other side of my door. "Unlock the door!" she cried. 

"Unnie, don't cry", Rosé said, worrying about Jisoo already.

"You and Jin will be happy no matter what, I promise", Lisa comforted her as well.

Even if I felt horrible about having to ignore Jisoo as she was crying her eyes out, I kept lying down there numbly, feeling like I couldn't move anything. Not my body to get up and unlock the door, not my mouth to tell Jisoo anything. I was stuck. Just stuck.

Right in that moment, we heard the doorbell.

"I'll open", Jisoo said between sobs.

They got up and approached the entrance door, opening it.

"Taehyung!" they exclaimed, in shock.

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. FUCK. He is the last person I wanted to see right now.

I suddenly got scared looking at myself in the mirror and seeing that my mascara was all over my face, and there were tears all on my pillow cover. I quickly got up, turned my pillow around, and ran to the bathroom to wash my face. I had no time to put another layer of make-up on, so I just ran back to my room and locked the door.

"Jisoo noona, can I please see Jennie?" he asked insistently.

"She isn't in her best phase today, to be honest", Jisoo said. "But if she opens the door for you, sure you can."

"I'm sure she will", Taehyung said, his voice hinting a bit lack of calmness.

You cocky man.

I heard the girls sit down on the couch, and only heard Taehyung's footsteps approaching my room.

Right after, I heard a soft knock on my door, followed by a harder one as I didn't answer.

"Jennie, it's me, Taehyung! Open up, please."

"Tae, not today, please. Maybe tomorrow."

"Jennie, today. Now."

I had no choice. His stubbornness was gonna go far enough for me to surrender, so I had to do it soon.

I sighed, got up from my bed, and unlocked the door.