3 am Thoughts.

Anger

I'm so fucking angry I can feel myself bubbling over with suppressed emotions.

I want to scream at my fucking pathetic excuse of a father for never treating us right. I want to scream at him at the top of my lungs for not accepting no as an answer. I want to scream at his worthless ass for never letting me feel like anything more than a disappointment. I want to fucking enlighten him the fact that if he died, I don't think I would cry. Hell, I probably would even attend the fucking funeral.

I want to fucking scream at my mother for being the lazy bitch she can be most of the time. I want to scream at her for ignoring me and not accepting my ideals. I want to punch her across the face and spit out how underappreciated I feel.

I want to scream at my brother for the shit he does to provoke me I want to scream at him for being that bratty ass that he always fucking is. I want to scream at him for always getting me in trouble for standing up for myself.

I want to scream at the public fucking school system for ripping apart our self-esteem and motivation. I want to scream at it for not letting us live our evenings and our lives.

I want to scream at healthcare for being so fucking costly that no one can afford it except Donald Trump rich asses. I want to scream at it for shaming mental health treatment.

I want to scream at society for repressing females and gays and all the minorities that make up the majority. I want to scream at equality's face and tell how it's a lie. I want to scream and yell about how life is a fucking joke. It's all a compilation of how fucked up each human is and them trying to make it all better and shit just to fucking die.

I want scream at the people that need help but aren't taking it. They aren't a fucking lost cause and if they opened their eyes from the self pity they would realise so. I want to scream at them reassurance and block out nonsense thoughts.

I want to scream at the fucking stalker I've had and tell him to look the other way. I want to scream to stop making me feel like I'm shit and stop making my body feel like it should be shameful. I want to slap you across the fucking face for what you've physically and mentally done to me you piece of shit.

I want to scream at myself for being the worst garbage on the face of this fucking earth. I want to scream at myself for how fucking lazy and shitty I am. I want my throat to go hoarse with my anger and my eyes to go dry and my chest to hurt and my heart to stop fucking beating.

I have a sour taste on my tongue and bone to pick with every walking, breathing, piece of garbage this earth has spat out to me. I wanna go out with a fucking bang.

Fuck, I'm pissed.