Artista, Ang Aking Kaaway

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Yakap-Yakap ko ang aking unan, habang hinihintay ko mula sa screen ng laptop ko kung kailan mag-bubukas ng skype sila mommy.
Hangang biglang bumukas ang screen camera nila mommy at nakita ko sila daddy na parehong nakaupo at nasa screen nila nakaharap.
"Hi baby, how are you there?
Daddy wave his hand on the view screen.
Suddenly, I felt pain showing that I have a family but limited to have a good conversation, kailangan ko pang magmakaawa para pansinin nila ako kahit sa video call nalang, ang hirap ng ganitong buhay, I wanted to be with them but I knew that it is imposible now.

"I am not fine daddy.
Nagtinginan silang dalawa bago nila ako tiningnan ulit, I think, gets naman nila ang sinasabi ko.
Ganito ba din ba si daddy noon in lola's hand?  Masaya kaya sya noon o gaya ko, na sobrang nasasakal na kay lola.
"Don't pretend anymore that you love each other mom and dad, because you didn't, I knew it, since before but I chose to be blind because I want to have a good family.

"Baby---that is not true.
Mom's want to defense but I knew that she is lying again. She can lie to her words, but in her face tell truth.

"Mom, I don't want to be like you two, I don't want to live like this, please, be true this time mom, I knew it, May kanya-kanya na kayong pamilya jan, and me? Nagsasama lang kayo for me to deceived me, for the sake of money, to save me to have own business to be not like you? for what mom? Until when, para lokohin nyo ako ng ganito? May mga pamilya na kayo Jan at kinalimutan nyo na ako dito!
I starting to cry, I knew before that their love is cold, by showing me when I was kid, a good relationship in my front but in my back, they are fighting and cold like stranger and not a couple.
I keep it because I want a family like my friends had, but I always ended envy and jealous because I knew, my family will never like their family.

"Baby--we can explain---
Mom starting to crying on the screen, and I saw to dad's face, a pain and a guilt after they heard my confession about their secret.

"Hangang kailan nyo ako pagtataguan mom, dad?
May itinaas akong mga litrato sa screen sakto para makita nila ang nasa litrato.
"Kung hindi ba ako nagpapa-imbistiga jan sa inyo, plano nyo bang gawin nyo akong tanga, lihiman nyo ako ng sekreto, hangang kailan mom, dad?!
You have no idea, how my life here without you, every once a year, umuuwi kayo dito, for what? Para malinis ang kunsensya nyo dahil iniwan nyo ako dito?!!
You told me mom, you will save me from lola's hand? Pero kaylan?! Paano?!! Kung dito, iniwan nyo ako, habang kayo nagpapakasaya na kayo Jan?!!!
They started to cried hard, my dad eyes started to cry and mom sobbing so hard on my screen, they didn't expected this words from me.
"Please.....

"Baby---
I stop her words from my mother explanation, from a hand sign.

"Please, support me to get out here mom, dad, hindi ko hahayaan na magaya ako sa inyo, kung hindi nyo ako kayang panindigan bilang anak nyo, ako---kaya kong mabuhay na mag-isa, kaya kong patunayan kay lola na hindi ako kailanman magagaya sa inyo.
Pinipigilan ko ang luha na bumabagsak sa pisngi ko, at pinapatibay ang sarili sa harap ng camera, to record how I try to be strong, unlike my parents doesn't.
"I want to go in England, to finish my study and lived there, without lola's---hand, that is a big favor, so please help me to my decision, I won't tell this to lola but be a parent to me now.

"Okay, baby, we will prepare that for you.
Daddy gave his approval to my decision, mommy is just crying on the screen, I don't need that tears, the pain is enough, my tears is enough, after I knew the truth, that all is gone, I just need now is the support from them as my parent and not their guilty discussion.