Is it too Late..? || Jikook

Chapter 7

Jimins POV

I sat staring out of my window, It was raining, great.

Rainy days used to be my favorite days,

My siblings and I would run out with our pajamas and let the rain consume us. Played tag, stuck our tongues out, and just it was always so great. That even though we would get sick from the lack of protection we had in the rain all that mattered was our smiles and our laughter

...the fact that we were all together enjoying something so small and yet i would be willing to trade my life for it just one more time.

After awhile of reminiscing I turned to dig threw my clothes to put on my clothes for school.

I settled with my uniform of course but an oversized sweater that belonged to my brother, he was much more bigger than me so i usually had to roll up the sleeves.

I sat and watched the time again until it was time for me to leave but instead of the front door i decided to climb out of the window. My dad had been acting strangely lately, everytime he seen me he would cry and hold me, mumbling things i could never understand. But he would still resort to kneeing me in my stomach for hugging him back. So i tried to be invisible until he gets over whatever the hell he is going through.

The past few days have been great, well not great but better than usual, I still have to go home and deal with my father but

Jungkook has been making me smile a lot more when I'm at school. After we got an A on our assignment Jin kept assigning us to be partners. I even started to become friends with Tae, it was pretty much forced since i still wasn't all that comfortable with him, but at least i get to time with kookie...

kookie?

Ugh youre such a loser

I thought as i physically cringed at the nickname.

He's been trying to get to know me, asking me questions about my family or my interests. But i always dodge the question or turn the question on him. So in a sense i know him but he barely knows me, but im fine with it.

It makes me feel special when he comes to me for comfort, he doesnt know that hes also helping me just by talking and distracting me from reality.

Ive had a few slip ups where i tell him a memory i had with my mom or funny stories from holidays, he even knows about my mom dying but i never told him i lost my brother and sister too. What would be the point of telling him everything?

It was October already, he would only know me for a few months, that was the deal i made with myself to not make relationships with anyone so nothing can stop me from the end goal.

Even though he has been holding me back from thinking of it, i can't seem to stay away from him, my mind always finds a way to mix him into everything i do now. Its like the voices telling me to keep him around are much louder than the ones telling me not to.

I ended up being late to school, i walked much more slower than i usually do lost in my thoughts. Mostly of him and ways to decline Jungkooks offer on going out to the mall with them.

They had asked me yesterday and initially I i said no but he kept pestering about it so i spit out a "Ill think about it"...Yea of ways to say no nicely.

My classes went by fast, spending time with Jungkook and V at lunch, having an argument of course and of me staring at Jungkook,
...the way his lips moved, the times when he pouted it was so adorable. The way his hair moved so freely when he would shift or nod. His beautiful doe eyes catching me a few times before i averted my gaze just to end up looking again. Not missing the pink that would cover his cheeks as he tried to ignore me staring.