I'll Be Waiting •On hold•

Chapter 16: "it's inevitable not to fall for you."

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I know I'm a terrible person.

I know what I did to Kyle was cruel but I swear, I didn't mean to hurt his feelings. It just feels like i'm dying day by day because of this guilt.

Kyle didn't deserve this at all. All he ever did was love and care for me. He has always been there for me when I needed him. He is a great a friend.
He brought back happiness in my life and a smile unto my face. He gave me a reason to live, but what did I ever give him? Pain, sorrow, heartache, misery.

Kyle is a great person that deserves an amazing person, someone who would make him happy, someone who would love unconditionally, someone who would love him in ways I couldn't.

I wish Kyle could see things from my point of view and that I could never reciprocate the same feelings for him. I made a promise to Brian that I would always love and wait for him. I can't my break my promise.

To be honest, I don't even know if I'm anticipating Brian return. It's like Kyle just wiped out the whole existence of Brian in my heart. But no matter what, I have to keep my promises, even though my feelings for him are not the same anymore.

I hope Kyle is fine.
It's been a week since I last saw him yet, it feels like ages. I must agree, I miss him a lot.
The last time I saw was when I resigned from Brown restaurant. I know it was a stupid thing to do, but i had to. For Kyle and for me.

It is best for the both of us, most especially him, if we stay as far away as possible from each other. He needs to realize that we could never work out and that he needs to move on. And I need to learn to live without Kyle, even if its going to be hard.

I can never forget the look Kyle had on his face when I went to drop my resignation letter at Brown restaurant. It was like he was begging me not to resign through his silence. His eyes colour weren't his usual ocean blue eyes but rather stormy blue. The pain in his eyes was unbearable. His stormy blue eyes said lots of things but the only that came out of his mouth was, "Are you sure you want to do this?"

Even after that day, Kyle didn't stop trying to get in touch me. I remember him coming to my house to see me but I had to beg my mum to tell him I wasn't around so I wouldn't face him. I know it was wrong of me to do so but trust me, it's for the best.

My phone suddenly vibrates, snapping me out my thoughts. I quickly grab my phone from my night stand. I check my phone and see that I have a new voicemail. It is from Kyle, obviously. This is like the thousandth voicemail he has sent in this past few days.

He also called me countless times, but I never picked any of his calls. Though, I'm dying to hear his fascinating voice.

I sigh deeply.
Maybe I should hear him out this time. Maybe he has something to say to me. So.. I listen to the voicemail.

"Hey Kenny," He starts. "Err...i just wanted to know if you're doing fine. I'm so sorry if I've done anything thing wrong to you. I really miss you Kendall."

"I really don't know why you're pushing me away, if it's because of my love for you and you think I made a mistake falling for you then, I accept that my love for you is wrong, I made a mistake. I just thought maybe you felt the same way for me, that was so stupid of me to think so," He chuckles lightly.

"It's inevitable not to fall for you. Kendall, you're a wonderful person. I'll always be down for you. Don't get wrong Kenny, I'm not saying all these things to convince you to accept me, I'm just saying these things because I don't want to lose such amazing person like you in my life. Please Kenny don't push me away from you. I don't want to lose a great a friend. I don't know if you're listening this voicemail ----".