I'll Be Waiting •On hold•

Chapter 19: Gone for good

•Kyle's POV•

I stand in front of the mirror, staring at the loser in front me.
I made such a great mistake falling for Kendall. A stupid mistake that I would never forgive myself for.
How could I think that Kendall could fall for me. She will never love me, she loves Brian.

Kendall can never be mine. Never.

I shatter the mirror in front me with my fist.
The glass pierces into my skin but I don't feel the pain, the pain I'm suffering in my heart is nothing compared to the pain of glass piercing into my skin.

I picture Kendall standing in front me. Her flowing brunette hair looked beautiful as ever on her. Her beautiful hazel eyes stares back at me and I can swear that she just smiled. I attempt to reach out to feel her skin again but slowly she fades away until she is gone, forever.

I take out my grief on the bookshelf by destroying the bookshelf.

It hurts, it fucking hurts.

I pant heavily, blood trickling from my palm but I don't care.

"Poor boy is crying because his girl left him for her lover?" A voice mocks.

"You should have have known she could never love you from the beginning," The voice spits.

"Kendall belongs to Brian," The voice laugh.

I cover my ears, trying to drown out the voice.

"The truth is bitter, Kyle, You're worthless!" The voice reminds.

"Just shut up! just fucking shut up!" I yell, to know one in particular.

"Kendall will never love you," The voice says louder.

Suddenly, the memories of earlier pops into my head.

"I missed you Kyle," Kenny says out the blue.

"Come again, I didn't get you," I scoots closer to her.
She rolls her eyes, "I said I missed you!"

"You what?" I smirk, wanting her to admit it again that she missed me.
She sighs exasperatedly, "Just forget it."
I chuckle. "Did you just admit that my absence had an impact on you?"

"Yes," Kenny replies, sincerity eminent in her voice.
She takes my hand in her and reach out to my face with her other hand.
I stare back at her surprised at what came over her. And I can swear that they are traces of love in her eyes and sadness.

Whats wrong with her?

Slowly, she leans in. Her face inches away from mine.

She attempt to place her lips on mine, but I pull back abruptly, stopping the kiss that was about to happen. For a split- second, she looks disappointed.

"Lies!" I sob, "Every fucking thing was a lie."

I pull my hair trying to rip it out my head.
I want to erase her from every good memories we shared but it's just seems impossible.
I just hate how much I love her!

I want to forget the day I met her but it's impossible.

Kendall is gone. Gone for good.

She broke me. I don't blame her though, it's all my fault.

I punch the wall, making a crack on it.

I swear to never let myself fall for any girl because I don't want to let my heart broken again.

Kendall is my first and last love.

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Waking up today feels like death.
"Ughh," I groan, as I stand up from the floor I fell asleep on last night.
My whole body feels so sore. I look around the room and see the mess I've made.