I'll Be Waiting •On hold•

Chapter 21: Broken

•KYLE'S POV•

Broken. This is what I am. Completely broken. I am broken because I believed. I believed in love.

So it's true? When all is said and done, grief is the price we pay for love. This is the price I am currently paying for loving Kendall.

It's been 6 months since Kendall left me. This 6 months has been hell for me. Things hasn't been easy for me. Within this 6 months, I have changed. I've been transformed into someone else.

I'm not the Kyle I used to be. This Kyle has been consumed by bitterness. Darkness has been made my abode while alcohol has been my solace.

    This why I am currently at the bar to drown away my sorrows. This past 6 months, alcohol has been my consolation. I have no other way of forgetting my sorrows other than drinking.

I know this alcohol is damaging me  but I have no other option. It helps to lift up my spirit.

I'm still finding it hard to accept the fact that Kendall is gone for good. I've tried hating her for leaving me but the mission just seems impossible. I can't hate her and I hate myself for that.

I'm sure she is happy with Brian and they are living happily and comfortably together. She must have forgotten me while i'm here still dying over her.

I order another bottle of vodka from the bar tender. This is the second bottle I'm ordering tonight. I take a swig from the bottle.

  I want to forget everything single thing about Kendall. I can still remember everything about her. Her hazel eyes, her beautiful face, and her gorgeous smile.

Memories of her comes rushing back into my head.

"Kenny.." I breathe and her gaze falls on my lips. Her eyes are filled emotions that I can't quite decipher.
Suddenly, she reaches up to touch my cheek. Her touch was so tender on my skin yet it ignited my soul.

Losing myself to her touch, I lean unto her my touch and clench my eyes shut.

Slowly, she pulls her hand from my cheek and make me peel my eyes open.

I'm suddenly aware of everything about Kendall. She is literally the definition of beauty. She is beautiful both in and out of her. Unable to control my emotions, I start to lean in.

Slowly, I place my lips on hers, light as feather. My lips are placed on hers gently. Abruptly, she starts responding. She deepens the kiss and electrifies my soul. Ours lips fits perfectly into each other.

Her fingers starts making it's way into my hair curling it and making me let out a soft groan. I've never experience anything as magical as this. I waited so long for this moment and I can't control myself.
She lets out soft moans as we kiss each other.

My soul is set ablaze and I am literally melting right now.
Her lips are going in perfect sync with mine.

I don't which is more beautiful, this moment of us or Kenny herself. I have fallen madly in love her which is bad because I have no chances with her. My love for her is turning me mad.

We both pull away from each other after a while.
With our gaze lock together as we breathe heavily. I press my forehead against hers, reality of the mistake we just made setting in.

I don't regret kissing Kendall, heck I loved it.  But I'm not sure if she feels the same way. By the disgusted look on her face, she clearly regrets it

I pull my hair in fraustation. These memories keeps coming back. Taking  few more swigs, I'm starting to feel the effect of the alcohol. My spirit is starting to elevate.