Miley’s p.o.v
I wanted to understand why this was all happening to me. It felt like the world was closing in on me and my lungs were failing to do their job. I sat down on the couch and slowly took a breath. Although, nothing I did helped to calm my nerves. I already knew what I was going to do…I knew what I was going to say. I just didn’t know how I was going to word it.
I had clean the house about 3 times while I was waiting for Liam to show up. I had showered, did my hair and makeup. I now was wearing a pair of jeans and a loose tank top. I was nervous to say the least. I didn’t know what he was going to say, but I knew that he was going to try and fix this, fix us. At this point…we were unfixable. I tried not to think of the worse but it was hard not too…
“Miley” Liam’s voice boomed throughout the house. I heard the door close and the dogs start to bark as he walked through the house.
“In here.” I spoke softly ending my silence.
“Hey baby” He said walking into the living room he smiled nice and big over at me.
“Hello.” I nodded.
“Why do you look so stiff?” Liam asked sitting down next to me. He wrapped his arm around me, but I pulled myself away. I honestly didn’t want him to touch me.
“I think, I have every reason to be stiff considering our current situation.” I spoke.
“Now I really know that you are pissed.” He laughed.
“And how is that funny?” I spat.
“Miley, calm down,” He rolled his eyes. He thought this whole thing was a joke, but it wasn’t. I wasn’t going to put up with him anymore.
“I think that we should break up, Liam.” I said it so fast that I was shocked with myself.
“What?” He stopped and looked over at me. Our eyes locked making this so much harder on me.
“You heard me.” I spoke up. I knew that I needed to end it once and for all, no matter how difficult it was.
“I know that you are upset, I made a mistake. I’m sorry…don’t make a mistake just because of my stupidity. You can forgive me, and we can make this work.” He spoke so easily and smoothly.
“I’m am not making a mistake, and this isn’t just because of you. I am doing this for myself. I am sorry, but I can’t do this anymore. This relationship is unhealthy and platonic.” I stood to my feet. “We both know that this isn’t working. We have tried everything, and failed. My feelings are fried at this point. I honestly don’t even know why we are still a couple when we never even see each other.” I rolled my eyes. At this point I was just babbling on about stupid shit, but everything I said was true.
“So you can’t forgive me? C’mon! I know I fucked up but you love me.” Liam said standing to his feet.
“I forgive you, Liam. You need to understand that I am only forgiving you so that I can move on. But, this isn’t about forgiveness anymore. I don’t hate you, and I will always love you. But, we aren’t working anymore. We haven’t not been working for a long time. I have thought long and hard about this…about us. I guess we just aren’t cut out for this relationship anymore.”
“So you are really breaking up with me? Wow.” He smeared. I could tell he was angry, but at the same time he looked relieved.
“We both seem to want different things. Our expectations our too high, and there isn’t enough love to cover the gap.” I breathed. I felt the world left off my shoulders. I felt like I could breathe again. Even though my heart had broken into pieces in the process.
“I am sorry, I will grab some of my things and leave.” He sighed.
“Here.” I said giving him the ring off my finger.
“It’s really over then.” He nodded. “I guess this was long overdue…” He wandered before walking out of the room.
I sat back down on the couch and waited. Within the hour Liam walked back down the stairs with a bag in his hands.
“I guess this is it.” He looked over at me.
“Yeah.” I nodded. I stood to my feet and walked over to him. I hugged him softly. “Maybe, one day we can be friends…I just think for right now, we should keep our space and be free again.” He nodded and kissed my cheek before stepping back.
“Goodbye” He said before walking out the front door. As soon as the door shut, I fell to the floor. My world had been shaken and now it was empty. I centered my whole life on him and now, I had to start from scratch.
Nick was right about a lot of things. Although it may take me a while, I am going to be myself 110%. I won’t let anyone try and change me. Somewhere inside of me, I have the strength to do it. Right now…I just need to find myself and get through this. I just hope that I can pull through this.
As the tears continued to fall, I felt freedom. I felt like I could finally be myself without anyone breathing down my neck. I didn’t have to worry about pleasing someone. I was no longer going to fake myself through this. I was going to be me and if people didn’t like that, then fine.
The only struggle I was going to face now, was finding out who I really am. And trying to wrap my head around the fact that even though my heart was broken, I was going to make it through this. After all, nobody ever dies from a heart break.
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