I followed behind Nick as he walked back to the house. Seeing how passionate Nick was with me, made me realize how real his feelings were. I don’t think he knew how much his words meant to me. I wanted him to know how I felt but I knew the timing was all wrong. I needed to sort through my feelings, I needed to understand what I wanted.
Things didn’t seem complicated, just uneasy.
“Nick” I said grabbing his hand. We were now standing outside of the house.
“Yeah” He said turning to look at me. I could tell that he was already distancing himself from me. I hated to see him act like this, but I knew that we needed some distance.
“I want you to know, I do have feelings for you.” I said grabbing his other hand.
“I wish that we had better timing.” I laughed softly, before sighing. “I care for you so much, and I love how I feel when you are around me. I need you to know how much I care for you, and I can’t wait to be your girl.” I said wrapping my arms around his waist.
“I know that someday we will be able to go all in, I really believe that.” I whispered into the crook of his neck. I looked up deep into his eyes and he looked down at me. I could tell that my words meant a lot to him. He kissed my forehead before letting me go.
We walked into the house and went our separate ways. I walked upstairs and climbed into my bed. I hated that the timing wasn’t right, it broke my heart. I felt so strongly about Nick, I knew that he was my everything. I knew that one day we would be together, I would be his girl and he would be my man. It just wasn’t today.
I wish I could just fast forward to that exact moment when we become an official couple. I wondered when that would be. All I wanted was him.
Nick’s p.o.v
I watched as Miley walked into the house and upstairs. She was wise, and smart. I hated the fact that I had to wait to have her. I wanted her, all of her. I knew that the wait would just strengthen us and bring us closer together. But, I hated the wait already.
“Nick, what’s going on?” Joe asked walking outside.
“Nothing.” I shook my head.
“Then why do you have that look on your face?” He asked looking at me intensely. “You have that longing facial expression.” He shook his head.
“Miley,” I shook my head. I sat down on the bench outside and placed my elbows on my knees.
“What?” He asked sitting down next to me.
“Being around her again, made all those feelings come up. This time it was different the feelings are stronger.” I reasoned. Everything that was going on in my head was all too much for me to even understand.
“I’m not surprised” Joe laughed lightly. “You guys used to be so close, in fact, you were inseparable.” He looked at me. He was right, Miley and I used to be so close.
“It’s different now. We both just got out of relationships, we can’t just jump into another one together.” I said before clearing my throat.
“Is that a problem?” He said sitting down next to me on the bench.
“We both agreed that we need to figure things out.” I sighed. “Separately” I stood to my feet. I understood what needed to be done, and I respect Miley’s choices. My only problem was the fact that I was impatient. I wanted what I wanted.
“Do you ever think you guys will get together?” He asked standing up next to me.
“In time.” I nodded my head. “We are going to wait. We will carry on with our lives, and in time we will possibly be together.” I spoke. Not only was I telling him, I was reassuring myself.
“Possibly?” He asked lowly raising his eyebrows.
“Yeah, I mean. We can’t freeze time or feelings. We will just have to take this one step at a time and see how things go.” I assured.
“Well, that is smart. You both need to work through your issues.” He reasoned.
“I know” I sighed walking back into the house.
Talking to Joe made it seem simpler than it was. I was happy that I had someone to talk. He helped me make sense of everything around me. Having him as a sounding board helped me reason things out. My brain wasn’t as cloudy as it was before.
Hearing how Miley felt about everything really helped me to see her side of things. I could see that she was passionate about us, she wanted there to be an us, just as bad as I did. She cared about me, she had feelings for me. I loved her touch, and her kind, wise words.
I walked back into my room, grabbing my guitar I sat down on the edge of my bed. Thinking about Miley made everything fall into place. In time things were going to work out. I knew it was stupid to think that everything could be perfect, but it could be special.
I strummed on my guitar and felt different types of melodies fall into place, as lyrics began to come to me like it was nothing. Miley was suddenly my muse. Thinking about her made everything fall into place.
(I am sorry that this chapter is shorter than my normal chapters. I am having a hard time getting things into place. If I am moving too fast please tell me. Also, if you have any thoughts and/or ideas about what you think should happen next, comment! I need to brainstorm for more ideas and I could use your help! I promise that things will start picking up soon. Let me know what you think! Comment and vote! Xoxo)
