Nick’s p.o.v
It has felt like forever, yet it has only been a year. A lot can happen in that short period of time. She changed, and I surely did too. I was not the man that I once was, and I would never be that man again.
I stood to my feet and walked around in the darkness of this torn a part room. It was once my bedroom. Now it was left over, empty space. I walked down the stairs and out the doors for the last time. I wasn’t coming back, not this time.
My phone started ringing. I reached into my pocket and pulled it out. I sighed to myself as I read the name that was in bold across the top of the screen. Everything in me wanted to ignore it, but my heart begged me to answer.
“Hello,” I said to the demon that I would never be able to let go of.
“Nick,” Her voice spoke taking control of my entire body.
“Yes, Miley” I spoke uneasily. She always called me when something was up, she expected me to drop everything and run to her. Not anymore.
“Joe told me that you are leaving…” She wandered, her voice was hopeful.
“Yeah, is that a problem?” I asked sounding pissed off. I didn’t care, and I knew she didn’t either. She stopped caring after we left Cabo. This didn't change, and they never would.
“I don’t understand,” She sighed. She was upset and frustrated, good.
“It doesn’t matter, it never will.” I spoke sharply. I was full of anger that I wanted her to understand, but she couldn't.
“It does,” She sighed. I could tell something was on her mind. I felt my soft spot for her began to take over my emotions. I couldn’t let her win, not this time.
“Look, please just wait. Tonight is my last show, and I would like to see you afterwards.” I could tell she was getting emotional. Welcome to my life, if she thought I was going to give in, she was in for a treat.
“I can’t.” I said trying not to give into the requests she was asking of.
“Please,” She begged sweetly. “I know that I have been asking for a lot, and I have been putting you off. But, you mean something to me...you know that.” She pressed. I tried to believe her, but there was still a part of me that didn’t believe her. She had led me on so many times, just to let me down again. I didn’t want to fall into her wrath again.
“Stop.” I spoke harshly. “I am done. You do this to me all the time, and I let you because, I actually love you. I know I mean nothing to you. It took me long enough to see that…I need to go.” I spoke harshly, letting the anger take over my being. Man, my emotions were fucked.
“That’s not true.” She spoke harshly. “God nick, I thought you understood. I thought you would have been supportive.” Anger filled her tone. If there was anything she was good at it was fighting. She wouldn’t stop until she won.
“Excuse me? I have always been here waiting, always waiting. While you run around with different guys, not even giving a fuck about my feelings. I sacrificed so much just to be with you!” I screamed pulling the car over. I couldn't focus, everything was always about her, always.
“I can’t believe you.” She let out a sharp sigh. “I have done nothing but care. I never asked you to stop everything for me. I asked for some time, because I didn’t want to rush into anything. I thought you understood.” She sighed. Her anger still hadn’t subsided.
“I know that things have been rough for you. I should have come back to be with you, I hate myself for not doing that. I am so sorry Nick.” She cried. There was nothing I hated more than hearing her cry.
“I just wanted to build a strong relationship with you, and I failed.” She sighed. “I should go, I have to be on stage in 20 minutes.” she said collecting herself.
“What about us?” I asked unsure if I wanted the answer.
“Let’s face it, you will never fully trust me. You will never see how much you mean to me. I don’t know what more you want from me.” She sighed.
“Miley,” I pracically cried her name. I regretted this whole conversation.
“No, you gave me hell all because you are pissed at me. I just can’t do this anymore. Either you love me, or you don’t.” She screamed, her voice cracking towards the end.
“What do you want?” I asked with a sigh. I fucked up, that was the truth.
“I want you, that hasn’t changed. But you will never trust me. I don’t know how to prove myself to you more than I already have. I love you Nick, I always will.” She breathed.
“Miley, you are on in five” I heard Tish scream in the back.
“I’m sorry that I have to let you down again…I have to go out and sing.” She sighed.
“Goodbye,” She said hanging up the phone.
“No,” I scream, my voice cracking. I lost her. She was gone.
