How to lose Hazza in 10 days || h.s. [english]

➵ P R O L O G U E

➵ P R O L O G U E

"I really do love you," I whisper.

He takes me in his strong arms. I feel safe. I know he would do anything to protect me from everything and everyone that would try to hurt me.

I love this guy. As much as anyone could love someone. But I can't take it any longer. The lie I'm carrying with me... My painful secret. I'm ashamed. Ashamed for what I did, or rather what I didn't. I just couldn't tell him. Period.

The day I met him, I already knew. That day I decided it was better left untold. My decision, was it based on anxiety? Anxiety for the tears I knew would flee if I told him, or for the realization I could not escape my fate – not if I spoke it out loud.

Today it's almost six months ago since I met him... And still I'm trying to deny my fate. I am, but my body can't anymore. I'm done. 

Mentally. The lie is tearing me apart. I hate lying to him, but theret isn't another way though.

And physically. My body can't do this anymore. But no one notices. I'm pushing myself to the boundaries, trying to do the exact same things as I did before. But I'm suffering, despite denial.  

I just can't take it anymore.

Although he's strong and protective, and despite the fact that he truly loves me... He can't protect me from the thing that's trying to get me right now. He just can't. My angel Harry isn't a real angel, he can't make miracles happen... 

A tear rolls down slowly to the corner of my mouth. I close my eyes, feeling his warm breath touching my lips. He kisses away the tear. The tear, not the pain.

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Thank you for reading <3 Keep the hanky ready :* Oh, this is gonna be a short story (14 short chapters including this one, but the other ones are longer than this one though). Hope you'll enjoy :) Lots of love, Famke