Skipper

14| A Sinner's Wish

JUSTIN

Why do I have to be this hurt? Why does life has to be so cruel? Why do I have to be who I am and fell in love with the woman I could never have?

If only I was selfish...

I shook my head. Her happiness will always be my priority. And love should not be selfish.

I love Tricia, and this is my way of loving her. I can sacrifice all of me for her. I can give away everything for her. I can kill myself, and still be willing to give her a genuine happiness.

I would never question why does it has to be her. Because loving her is my pleasure and my pain. She's life and death. 

Tricia's lips felt like an angel's breath. The moment they touched mine, I was pulled out of the misery that was drowning me. She's my saving grace. 

I pulled her closer to me. I kissed her the way I've always wanted to. I have always dreamed of tasting this pair of lips, and all my imaginations faded in comparison with this reality. All the kisses I shared with another girls were nothing compared with the emotions and sensations she's making me feel. Shit, I am kissing the girl of my dreams. 

Fuck! I am madly in love with this woman. The one I shouldn't love... but I am deeply drowned. I love her. I can be a sinner for this feelings. I can burn in hell for this. 

I got on my feet then I pulled her up. I placed her on top of her desk, still kissing her, fiercely but tenderly. I never wanna stop falling in love with her. I never wanna stop kissing this pair of sinful lips. 

My hands found their way on her legs. Soft moans escaped her precious lips as I gently caressed her soft skin. 

Fuck, baby! 

From her legs, my hands slowly crawled to her hips. 

This is wrong. This is goddamn forbidden, but I want to satisfy myself for now. I've been in a very depressing phase and this is a relief. She's the light in my darkness. 

Tricia's finger's curled on my hair. Do you want me as I want you, baby? 

I moved my lips to her neck. Every soft whimpers from her intensifies the demon I am trying so bad to keep within me. 

"I love you."

Her words were like a cold water poured on me. 

"I love you, Justin," she uttered like a prayer. 

I shut my eyes tightly. 

Fuck me. This is so wrong. 

I untangled myself from her. I took a step back. 

No. I can't pull her into this. 

"Justin?" Tricia gently called.

I looked up at her. The confusion in her eyes felt like a punch in the gut. 

"This is wrong," I said then I ran my fingers through my hair.