Hello, Just Me Here

Talk

I could never talk about what's happening in my mind

I could never explain how hard it is for me to say

What goes through my thoughts both night and day

I've thought of death

Of yours and mine

I've thought of solitude

I know you'll leave me behind

I've thought of losing you to another

Funny how some can easily say this to each other

I find it hard to tell you

What goes through my head

I find it hard to believe

That I shouldn't be dead

I don't think it's true that you love me

I don't think it's true that anyone cares

I don't believe you're happy with me

I believe you'd be better off as hers

I believe my so called friends are only here because they pity me

I believe I'm so worthless I shouldn't even be considered human

I believe no one could ever truly love me

I believe I'm alone

I believe I always have been

And I believe that what I've just told you

Will destroy you as it did to me

It will linger in your mind like it did mine

I've thought these thoughts for years on end

Day and night

With family and friend

I believe I should never say this to someone

Unless I think they might care enough to stay

But then again why would they?