Hello, Just Me Here

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Did you think I'd make it out alive?

Did you place your bet on when I'd lie?

Did you like when I changed directions?

We all know I'm not going to heaven.

Did you like when I lost my sanity?

Did you like it when I gave up my humanity?

Did you know I'd let you down?

I did, so why do I frown?

Because like I said I let you down

That's not the first time

I know

It's really starting to dig deep

It's starting to get steep

I finally realized after being so blind

How I've wronged you

What I'm leaving behind

Now I am starting to look for my humanity

Why did I leave it so suddenly?

What happened to wanting to help?

What have I done?

Why am I giving them hell?

Where am I going?

When will I be done?

What to say when I'm too dumb?

Forgive me, again

I always end up apologizing

I always end up here

Looking for a way back to where I started

How many chances have I been given?

How many more?

Why am I just sitting?

I say I'll find a way to help but here I am still as a shelf

I can't help anyone can I?

But how would I know if I barely even try