Hello, Just Me Here

Science Class

Three boys at the table

All of them I know

The one I've known the longest is the closest friend to the boy I love

He looks at me with worry as the others ask

"How come you never smile?"

I look at him again and there he is

Staring with worry and pity too

I stay silent of course but my mind

Is as loud as a dying frantic horse

I'm sorry I can't smile with these things on my mind

I'm sorry I've forgotten how

I'm sorry I can't smile when the only things I'm thinking of is of him

Hanging from the ceiling fan

And her

on the floor with bloody slit wrists

I'm sorry I can't smile when all I want to do is give in

I'm sorry I can even smirk when all I want is a blade against my skin

I'm sorry I can't give you a genuine smile when I know they've caved in

"Come on Ashley, turn that frown upside down."

Well I'm sorry I can't smile when I know I've let them down

I'm sorry my face holds nothing but a frown

I'm sorry I let them down

Again