Hello, Just Me Here

are you okay?

You're standing there

Staring

And it feels like you're looking right through me

See through these lies

Can you tell I'm not really alright

And you keep asking

Yet these feelings I'm still masking

Can you tell I've cried myself to sleep again

It's getting harder for breathing

And

I don't know how I've kept myself from breaking in front of you

And you keep asking me

But I can't really talk

See it's hard to form words when I'm so tired of breathing

And I'm so sick of hearing my heart beating

I just want it all to stop

And you keep asking me daily

And I'm starting to fade from reality

I'm guessing you noticed

Because

You keep asking

But the thing is

I can't bring myself to tell you

But you don't know how badly I want to

Because I just don't want to be here

But the look in your eyes

And your smile

Is keeping me alive

I just can't stop waking up

I'm addicted to you

And I can't leave this world

As badly as I want to

Because a day without you is worse than the suicide I've planned for months

And I'm so sorry

And I'm so glad you're here

But these past days I've been thinking of the promise you made

To try to stay

And now I'm the one trying to keep it

Trying to stay alive

I'm not sure if you can see through it

This act

I'm not okay

I know you can tell

As many times I say I am

But that's alright

I don't mind

But you keep

Asking

You just keep asking

I can't tell you the truth

But

You keep asking

Daily

"are you okay?"