Heart- a rant

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   Lately, poetry has not been coming to me as easily as it used to. I know why, but it shouldn't apply anymore.

   My mental state is compromised. All the work I've put into being confident, optimistic, and helpful seems to be fading away. I feel like I am unraveling and one of these days people will see me for the monster I am and run away.

   That crap scares me. Because ... I tried so hard to get here, and to see it fall away is terrifying

   How do I tell my two best friends that I am down all the time? How do I tell them that I got messed up time and time again? How do I tell them that I can't get over it rn? How do I tell them that they've been getting to know someone else these past few months? I can't breathe anymore. I'm so tired of myself...

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