Shipwrecked (Lawlorff)

V

(Sam's POV)

I cannot believe that just happened. Kian Lawley, the boy I've been in love with for years now, just kissed  me. And said he loved me. What a day this is turning out to be!

I kiss him back again and he smiles inbetween each kiss. He strips off his t-shirt and throws it onto the ground.

"Kind of our luck to get the honeymoon suite, huh?" he flirts, pushing curly pieces of hair out of my face.

I smile. "Yeah, our luck." I echo.

Everything is perfect now.

(Kian's POV)

I did it. I kissed him. I told him how I felt, and how I knew he felt the same. I feel like I'm walking on cloud nine right now, here making out with him. A heart shaped bed, oh how fate teases us. We couldn't possibly stand to be in this bed together and not express our true feelings. I had to tell him, but it looks like it came as a bit of a shock to him. A good sort of shock, though.  It feels so right here, I can't explain why. Up until around 8 months ago, he was simply my best friend. In fact, he was barely that. We barely spoke when he moved in with Dom and me into the o2l house. And then came the first o2l tour, where fate brought us into the same hotel room the first time. We laughed, and reconnected. It was right after I had broken up with Andrea, and Sam was there for me each second that passed by. He could not have been more perfect. And then we hugged onstage, and all our fans witnessed the resurrection of the bromance they call Lawlorff. We hung out more, tweeted eachother more. It was like a dream, where I finally got my best friend back. I caught him on several occasions crying in his bathroom, but he never saw me. He always hid his sadness from everyone, especially me. I can see why, now. His arm is practically tattooed with scars. The poor baby. I wish I was there for him like he was there for me. 

I found out I first had feelings for him the first time I caught him cutting. I didn't do or say anything about it, although I should have. I just walked away and went to bed, pretending I never saw anything at all. And that was a mistake, as I see now. That night I thought about him all night long. I couldn't sleep. He worried me to the end of the earth, and then I realized you absolutely cannot care about someone that much unless you love them. And it dawned on me, that I did. 

I had a crush on him after that point, never saying or doing anything about that either. Another dumb idea by Kian Lawley, everyone. I should've told him earlier. Then we could've fixed all these problems. 

I wonder why he cuts, though. There's no reason for him to. He's absolutely perfect to me, and probably to everyone else too. I guess it might be because of all the unneccessary hate he gets. It's really stupid for him to get that much, considering how perfect he is, and how he deserves none of it. 

But oh god, how's this going to work out for us? Is it going to be our little secret? Are we going to tell everyone or anyone at all? Are we going to come out? Are we going to stay in the closet?

I sort of already told Jc that I liked Sam, and he's the one who tipped me off that Sam liked me back. I guess Jc's good at reading emotions, so he figured out Sam's crush on me right away.

"Sam?" I ask, breaking away from the cloud of kisses he's given me.

"Yeah Kiki?"

I take a deep breath. "Will you tell me why you cut yourself?"

He nods, but I can see it's hurting him to even hear those words. He's so depressed, I wish I could save him.

"As you probably noticed, I get a hell of a lot more hate than any of you other guys.. and I don't know.. it gets to my head alot. I starved myself because they called me fat. I cut myself because they told me I was a worthless whore.."

He begins crying again, and I bring him into my chest.

"But I cut myself alot because of Andrea too.." he admits.

"Oh.."

"She told me that I would never be good enough for you. It sort of broke me."

I hug him tightly.

"She's gone, and she's never coming back. I love you, Sam. You don't ever have to worry about her when you're with me."

He kisses my cheek and nestles in to my shoulder. I'm finally in heaven, I really am.

(Jc's POV)

Kian and Sam just totally disappeared. That's wierd. Maybe they just went back up to their room to check it out. OH SHIT. Did I forget to tell them that Acacia and Lindsay are staying across the hall from them? Nah.. I'm sure I told em..right? Ehh, whatever. They'll find out for themselves.

Lia and I are looking for dolphins or whales or something over the railing. It's a very beautiful day out here in California, but there's loads of guilt piling down on me like one of these anchors. I did something with someone who wasn't Lia...and I feel just absolutely terrible about it. I don't know whether to confess or not, since we're celebrating our year anniversary on this boat. I guess I should wait until after right?

Oh whatever, I'll be fine. She loves me. But then again, so does the girl you hooked up with you asshole, I think to myself. 

Oh shit, what have I done?!

(Acacia's POV)

"Hahah yeah and then I made a joke about Sam wanting to have sex with Kian. You should've seen how red his face was!" I told my roommate for this cruise, Lindsay. Lindsay and I are on-again-off-again besties. Both of us have been in relationships with Sam, both fake as well, so it's even funnier to talk about Sam.

I bet Sam's freaking out in there, trying to convince Kian that it was all a joke. I mean, I was just teasing him, but it's true. He totally does want Kian. But really, who doesn't.

"Hey, let's pull a prank on them!" Lindsay says, opening our door and going out through the hall to theirs. Oh shit, this is gonna be great.