50 shades darker

chapter 11

joey +

i stared down at natalia as her little hands wrapped around my finger with her little eyes closed.

she was so gentle and precious it brought softness out of me—which doesn't happen very often- 'at all to be exact.

i know what i'm about to do isn't such a smart or good idea but it's what i have to do for my little girl to grow up with a dad.

i don't want y/n to tell her one of those stories about her dad abandoning her and make her all sad.

i want her to be with me and grow up happy and safe. as long as she's with me, she'll be ok.

my phone started vibrating and it was carlos calling, "hello?" i said into the phone.

"hey boss, a sniper washed up in our warehouse." he said making my blood boil.

"do we wait for you or-" i cut him off, "-carlos, i told everyone i wouldn't be informed of any of this bc of the birth of my daughter. if anything happens, you kill. so if i was there that guy would be dead."

"boss that's the thing he-"

"-carlos i don't want to hear it. he dies now or you do" i started to feel myself getting annoyed at this point.

"he got away."

y/n +

i don't get it, "don't you see how cold he is towards you tho?" she said.

"you know what loren, i don't care anymore. i've been hurt way too much by the people i love, or by others and i'm just so tired of it i'm just not gonna care anymore. i don't feel anything towards anything like that anymore" i said.

"well what can i do to help you?" she asked, grabbing my hand. i lowly took my hand out of her's and said, "get out."

she looked taken a back, "what-,"

"i said, get out" i looked down but she still refused to listen and leave, "no, i'm not leaving you" she scoffed.

i felt my eyes start to water, i got out of bed and started to push her out "get the fuck out!" i shouted.

she grabbed her jacket and left, slamming the door. i started to catch my breath thinking of everything i just did..

i shut loren out, joey's a mess, and charles is being an asshole.

i don't have anyone.

i sighed and sat back in bed, all this stress and worry over nothing?

joey doesn't love me anymore!

that's it!

he's cold and he's an asshole who only cares about himself and nobody else!

how could i ever make myself believe that someone like him would ever love someone like me?

dumb right?

knock knock

"ms. dallas" the nurse walked in, "yes?"

she smiled "your free to go, just have to sign the discharge papers and your all set" she said.

i nodded and asked, "what about my baby?". her brows furrowed, "oh um mr. birlem had" she paused as she felt a loss of words.

confusion mixed me as she had this look of confusion and dryness,

"he discharged the baby a while ago, said something about taking her over to a hospital in russia" my heart dropped

"what?!" i got out of bed, "he had said he discussed this with you" she said.

"ok hold on, tell me everything he said" i asked, how dare he take my child without talking to me.

he thinks he can just come back into my life and then run back off with out 2nd child? i don't think so.

"ok, ms. dallas, he um- he said he's gonna transfer his daughter over to a hospital in russia where they will monitor her breathing levels and all since she's premature. he said he discussed this with you and that you were fine with it, he also left 2 hours ago."

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