50 shades darker

chapter 12

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i paced back and forth, it's been 3 hours since the nurse had given me the news.

he left just like that? taking my child with him?

who knows what might happen?

he might raise her to be a mafia gangster, to kill people and torture them.

i felt like crying at the thought of her turning out like that.

loren walked in the room, even though i got mad at her i couldn't think of anyone else to talk to and she's still my best friend no matter what.

"where's the baby?" she asked, i walked up to her and hugged her.

i sobbed, "he took her loren, he took natalia with him to russia" i said.

i released from the hug and can see the shock in her facial expression, she really wasn't expecting that either.

i was able to go back home today, i was finally able to go back home and show natalia her bedroom and all but since she's with joey theirs no use.

i felt empty.

it felt like a part of me was torn out and smashed into pieces, that part was natalia.

she was with me one second and the next she's gone with her father who's..god i don't even know what he is but it's just something twisted and messed up.

something unexplainable.

loren grabbed my hand and said, "let's get charles-" but i quickly cut her off, "charles stays out of this. i don't want to see him or hear from him, he's dead to me."

she furrowed her brows, "what happened between you and charles?" she asked.

i sighed, "don't worry about it, right now my main priority is getting natalia back. one way or another i have to come up with something."

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i finished taking a shower and got dressed, me and loren had arrived home 2 hours ago and right now we're booking tickets to russia.

i walked out the bathroom and into the room, i looked around and remembered when me and joey would walk in and just lay in bed having dumb convos or just play around with kash, all the good memories flooded back.

i couldn't help but smile when i remembered how big his smile was when kash walked in every morning jumping on our bed waking us up, or when he took his first steps how joey started yelling out calling for me with his big goofy smile.

i won't forget how he cried when kash was born, he stood next to me and once he heard his cry's that's when he turned around facing his back towards me hiding himself.

he might be cold hearted or selfish, but his love for the kids isn't something you see everyday.

he doesn't show his feelings, and not gonna lie, he's really good at hiding them but when it comes to the good he shows his loving, and caring side.

i rubbed my eyes and felt my hands get wet, i was crying and i don't blame myself.

how can someone not get emotional over something like this?

he's the love of my life and the father of my children and for him to be gone like this gets me emotional and i don't care who i'm in front of, i'll always cry.

"y/n!" i heard loren shout from downstairs, "i found a flight for tuesday!"

i quickly brushed my hair and went downstairs, "let me see" i said and she handed me the laptop once i sat down next to her on the sofa.

it showed a flight for tuesday, that's in 3 days.

i felt a lump in my throat, "loren."

she pulled me into a side hug, "i know it's tuff but look on the bright side, she's with joey. i know he's not gonna let anybody harm her or let her get hurt. i'm sure he'd kill anyone who'd touch her" she cracked out a small laugh at the end making me smile.

she wasn't wrong. i'm sure he wouldn't let anything happen to her since she really needs the care, but if anything happens that really would be the death of me.

joey +

we had finally arrived to russia, the door opened and i carried natalia out of the private jet.

i kept her close to me and made sure her jacket was nicely covering her.

i had changed her into a warm comfortable outfit since it's very cold here in russia, i wouldn't want her getting sick.

she opened her little eyes making me smile, i kissed her cheek and saw one of my men pull up.

i got in the car and he drove off to the mansion, i've decided for us to move into a mansion instead of staying in the warehouse where natalia would be exposed to all the germs.

everyone else stays in the warehouse and i stay in my own place now.

it's not for long that me and the gang are staying in russia.

half the gang is going to california and the other half if going to new york,

with me.

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