Behind The Mask (Normani/you)

Chapter Six

Your POV

On the bus me and Blair were on the back like usual. We were just lounging around when the girls entered. Did they seriously always have to enter when we were there? It's like they plan it. I didn't see Normani though so I guess that's good. Ally smiled at us. "We're doing another concert," she informed us. "It's at the children's hospital for cancer kids. We'll be there in five minutes so be ready." With that they walked away.

My eyes went wide as my heart quickened. No. Not the hospital. I can't deal with hospitals. Not anymore. Especially not that one. Why did it have to be in this state? Blair hugged me. "I'll be right there with you," she assured. I nodded. "It'll be okay."

"I can't," I shook my head as I put my head in my hands. "I-I-I can't. I can't see all those kids like that. Not again."

"Want me to talk to Roger about it?"

I shook my head. "No, I have to do it. Everyone will think I'm an asshole if I don't."

"To be fair," Blair paused, "they already think you're an asshole. Well the girls anyway."

"Not Normani though," I corrected. "I don't want her to think I am."

Blair nodded. "Okay, then I'll be right there for you,"

"Thanks." That's when we arrived and we all got off the bus and entered the hospital. My heart dropped whenever we saw a cancer kid. They looked just like her before....

I shook my head. I couldn't be thinking about that. Not right now. We made our way to the room where we'd be performing. We got set up and was almost time for me to perform. My heart quickened and my breathing became heavy. I turned to Blair. "I don't think I can do this," I spoke quickly.

"You got this," Blair assured as she put her hands on my shoulder. "I believe in you."

"What if I don't believe in myself?"

"I believe enough for both of us."

I nodded. "Okay. I got this."

"You got this."

I stepped onto the little stage that they had set up and walked to the center. I took a deep breath before facing the crowd. "Hi," I spoke softly. There was a chorus of hi's back. I felt tears fill my eyes as I saw all the kids. "There's uh there's a song that's very special to me and uh I want to share it with you guys. Is that okay?" They all said yeah. I couldn't believe I was about to do this. "Hope you enjoy." I grabbed a guitar and sat down on the stool. I started to strum.

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life you were only waiting for this moment to arise

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see
All your life you were only waiting for this moment to be free

Blackbird fly
Blackbird fly
Into the night of the dark black night

I started to cry and couldn't continue. "I-I-I can't I'm sorry." I set down the guitar and ran out of the hospital. I couldn't do it. It was just too much. I ran out the exit and fell to my knees. After a minute I felt someone's arms wrap around me. I turned to see Blair. "Why?" I cried out. "Why her?"

"I can't answer that," Blair whispered.

I cried harder. "I know."

"Come on, let's head back to the bus." And that's exactly what we did.

So I've been dead. I know this. And I'm sorry. I've just been extremely depressed and unmotivated and super busy. So sorry. But anyway hope you enjoyed. Yeah that's it. Bye.