Behind The Mask (Normani/you)

Chapter Four

Your POV

I woke up in my bunk cuddled with Blair. I figured she carried me here from the back room and decided to stay with me, so I wasn't all that surprised. This isn't the first time we've cuddled anyway so it doesn't really matter. I slowly moved Blair's hand from around my waist so I could get up. Once I was free from her grasp I got out of the bunk. I made my way to the kitchen area to grab me something to eat. When I got there I saw the girls. Just great. I ignored them and grabbed an apple making my way to the couch.

"Well good morning to you too my majesty," Dinah sassed as she did a little bow. I rolled my eyes and didn't respond. "Wow look she's ignoring all of us now not just you Normani." I sat down and turned on the TV.

"Leave her alone," Normani defended me. Why? I don't know.

"Why should we?" Lauren asked. "She's a bitch to us, why not be a bitch back?"

"Because it's called human decency, which I thought you guys had," Normani responded. Next thing I knew she was sitting next to me on the couch. "Sorry about them," she apologized. I nodded but didn't look at her. "Can you please look at me?" I shook my head. "Please?" I shook my head again. "Why not?"

"Because."

"Because why?"

I bit my lip from spilling the truth. "Because I don't like you," I lied.

"I know that's not true," she replied. "Wanna tell me the real reason now?" I shook my head. "Please?"

"Ask all you want you're not getting an answer."

Normani nodded. "Okay then."

"Y/n!" I heard Blair call me. "Come back to bed!"

I chuckled. "I'm coming!" I stood up, threw away my apple, and made my way to the bunks. I slipped inside of mine and we cuddled going back to sleep.

We woke up an hour later and went to the backroom  to talk. "Soooooo how's it going?" Blair asked me.

I put my head on her shoulder. "Terrible."

"And why's that love?" She put her arm around me.

"It's getting harder not to look at her. I want to remember her but at the same time I don't. It's also hard to not tell her he truth. I know I'm hurting her and I feel like by hurting Normani I'm hurting her too. I just don't know if I can do this."

It was silent for a moment until Blair asked, "Why won't you say her name?" I didn't answer. "It's been two years and I haven't heard you say her name once."

I sighed. "I-I can't."

"Why not?"

I shook my head. "It's too hard. Too painful. So many memories come to me just with her name. I can't handle all of them. Not this month."

Blair nodded. "Fair enough." We sat there peacefully when the bus stopped. "Are we here?"

I shrugged. "I guess." We stood up and went to the front of the bus where the girls were. Roger then entered the bus.

"You guys have an interview in one hour be ready," he said and then turned to leave but turned back around. "You as well Y/n. You guys have it together." Then he left.

"Just great," Lauren mumbled under her breath. I rolled my eyes but went to get ready. I threw on black ripped skinny jeans, a white blouse with a skull on it, and my black leather jacket. I did my hair and make up and made my way off the bus and to the building. The girls quickly followed and we were in the room the interview was being held. We all sat down me, then Normani, Ally, Dinah, Lauren, and Camila. I wished I could've sat somewhere else but nope. Here we are. I looked to the side where I saw Blair giving me a thumbs up. I took a deep breath to calm down. I got this.

"Hey everybody, I'm here today with none other than Fifth Harmony and Y/n Y/l/n. How are you guys today?" He asked. We all answered with different variations of "good". "That's good, so today I just wanna ask you guys some question if that's all right." We all nodded. "Okay first question, how did you guys meet?"

I decided to speak up. "It was actually through Simon. He called us in together and said we were going on tour. So yeah."

"Okay okay, what was your first thought of each other? Y/n first."

My heart pounded in my chest. Time to lie. I've been getting a lot better at that. "Well, for Camila and Dinah I thought they were funny, I thought Ally was the sweetest human being, I thought Lauren was extremely smart and confident, and as for Normani? I thought she was just simply amazing." I gave a smile and I could see out of the corner of my eye Normani smiling at me. I gave a quick glance at her and my heart shattered. It just brought too much pain. He interview continued with the girls saying nice things about me which genuinely surprised me. Once it ended we headed back to the bus. I was about to head to my bunk when Dinah grabbed my arm. I gave her a look to say what she was going to.

"Good job," she said, "with the interview. And thanks for saying those nice things."

I nodded and then walked away not replying. I climbed into my bunk and Blair joined me. "You doing alright?" She asked me concerned.

I shook my head as tears filled my eyes. "They even smile the same." I started to sob.

Blair hugged me tight and started to rub my back. "It's going to be okay, love. It's going to be okay."

"How do you know that?"

"I just do." With that she held me until I fell asleep.

Damn I'm slow but hey at least I updated within the week. Tell me what you thought. Hope you enjoyed.