"Look who is digging their own grave!" that is what they all say.
"You'll drink yourself to death."
Look who makes their own bed, lies right down with in it.
" And what will you have left? "
Out on the front door, drinking from a paper cup. "You won't remember this."
Living beyond your years..
All the memories keep flooding back from when I was back in England. I don't want to repeat the same thing. I don't want to keep drinking every time I have a problem. I want to be able to solve them on my own.. With the help of Eleanor. I feel so open with her. This is really odd to me because I am never comfortable around people. This is just another night and I've had many of them.
Eleanor's POV.
I run inside my flat and into Luke's arms crying like a lost child.
"What happened?" Luke is taken by surprise as I crash into his large chest with my hands covering my face.
"I don't wanna talk about it.. I just want to go sleep." I look up at him as tears are streaming down my face like a river. I let go of Luke and run into my bedroom then slam the door
"Please let me in, I might be able to put some joy upon your face." I hear Luke knocking.
"Leave me alone! I don't want to talk to anyone." I sink my face into a pillow.
"Please.." He begs. It's really not fair to him to just run into his arms crying then leave him in suspense.
"What?" I open the door so dramatically.
"What happened?"
"Nothing."
"Must be something if you are crying a river. What's your deal?"
"My deal is that I never want to talk to that drunk ever again." I scream. I'm aware that Luke wants to hear exactly that. He only really distant himself from me because of Harry. Now that I have said that he knows it's safe.
"Why? Isn't he in the hospital still?"
"No, I found him with Lou beside him. She's all he really needs,you know? She came all the way from England just to see him so congrats to her." I throw myself on my bed and scream into my pillow in frustration.
"I really don't think you should." I hear Ashton in the living room.
"Please I just need her for a favor." Lou is here.
"What do you want?" I push past Luke and yell at her.
"I need you to stay with Harry tonight. Please, he can't stay alone." She begs. Why? Doesn't he have her already?
"No way." Luke said what I can't get myself to say.
"Why not?" She looks at Luke.
"He has you isn't that good enough?" Luke says through his teeth as he walks closer to her.
"I didn't just come here because of him.. I have an event to attend right now and it's really important just please Eleanor." She looks up on his left shoulder at me.
"I have nothing to say to you or him." I chock.
"If he needs Eleanor so bad then he can come spend the night here with us. All of us." Ashton adds. I'm not so sure he knows what he is saying.
"Whatever. I'm going to sleep." I chuck my deuces up and walk away like nothing just happened. Luke follows.
"You sure you don't care if Harry spends the night here?" Luke scans my face.
"At this point Luke, I don't care for anything. I just want some sleep. Deep sleep that I haven't had for ages." I whisper. Luke puts his hands on my face and kisses my forehead. "I'll take care of this El, you go get your rest." He whispers back.
I hop in my bed and close my eyes.
"No, I only want Eleanor." Harry is screaming and I try to block him out. His voice keeps repeating in my head. Get out.. Get out.. Get out of my head, and come into my arms instead. I don't know what it is but he's got that one thing. No, I need to be pissed at him.
I can't do it. Harry is ill and I know he needs me. I think he is aware that I am very angry towards him but then again I did not give him the chance to explain what had happened back at his place. I believe he would be angry towards me as well if he had found out that I went clubbing with Luke, but why does it matter? We aren't in a relationship. It's silly that I am crying over absolutely nothing. I leave my bed knowing that I will come back to it at some point tonight.
"What's going on?" I yell through the hall way.
"Eleanor." Harry's tone of voice is unexplainable.
"Harry."
"I need you to come back with me to my place and stay with me there." He run towards me with a bruised face and a broken arm.
"Why? I'm not obliged. Am I Mr. Styles?" I sass him.
"No El, but I beg you. You are the only one has been taking care of me ever since you got here. Please." He looks at me with his sad eyes. The kind of eyes that I can't say no to.
"Back up Styles. She doesn't have to do shit for you." Luke pushes him.
"No, Luke. Just leave him." I put my arm in front of Harry. "When do things just get better and I get some deep sleep." I sigh.
"When you come with me Eleanor." Harry repeats.
"Fine. I just don't want anymore shit." I put my arm down "just go Harry, i'll catch up to you." I go inside my bedroom to grab my blanket and pillow.
"You know you don't have to go with him. He can take care of himself." Luke follows me again. I can feel his anger, not that I disagree with him, I just don't want to keep starting problems.
"I know Luke but I just.."
"You just what?"
"Just drop it Luke." I put my arms around his waste and smile at him.
"I refuse that you spend the night at him place."
"It's not like we will share a bed." I laugh.
Luke raises his eyebrows "Better not Calder."
"I promise. We're just friends.. Like you and I."
"Sure." He rolls his eyes and I put my head to his chest. His height is massive. I love it. "Be careful Calder." He adds.
"Will do Hemmings!" I wink and walk out.
"Bye Ashton!" I wave to him while he is chewing on a sandwich in my kitchen. He can't really talk because his mouth is so full but he waves back at least.
