Perfectly Wrong (Chanyeol × Reader)

12. Tear in my heart

                       YOUR   P.O.V.

We get inside the hotel & waited for a bit since there were people already at the reception.

(Y/n): "Doesn't it feel uncomfortable?"

Chanyeol: "What does?"

(Y/n): "Wearing a mask & oversized shirt all the time."

Chanyeol: "Well I'm used to it, also I don't want anyone to recognise me so it's important. That's the one thing about being famous, we literally have no privacy. Sometimes I just wanna have a normal life. I wanna walk around places without having people around me who capture my every movement. Many people think that being an idol is the best thing & the best life one can have, but deep inside only we know how much we sacrifice & put up with. If I'd ever get a chance to fulfill my one wish, I would like to spend a day like a normal person. I wouldn't want to have a normal life because I'll miss EXO-L then so having a day away from all the spotlight & eyes on me would be really nice. Spending a day with my loved ones, without being judged or disturbed. I hope that's not too much to ask for."

I look into his eyes as he speaks. His eyes are so bright & deep. They're always shining no matter what he's talking about. Everytime I look at him, I get assured that loving this man was never a mistake. He doesn't know about my feelings & probably would never know, that's how I want to keep it. I wanna love him with all my heart without making it uncomfortable for him.

Chanyeol: "(Y/n)? Let's go. The reception is free now."

We walk to the reception.

(Y/n): "Um.. excuse me? We wanna book a room for one."

Receptionist: "I'm so sorry mam but aren't taking bookings anymore."

Chanyeol: "Why? I just need a room for one, can't you manage? I stayed here last time I visited.. a week ago."

Receptionist: "I'm sorry sir but this week we're full. There's really not even a single room left unbooked. You'll have to try somewhere else."

We both thank her & leave the hotel. We stand outside as we wonder what to do now.

Chanyeol: "It's already 9pm, let's just find some other place fast."

(Y/n): "This is the best hotel in this area. I don't think others would suit your style."

Chanyeol: "I'm really tired (y/n), I just wanna eat & sleep."

There's something different when he takes my name.. hearing my name from his mouth gives me a different feeling. I may be overthinking but it makes me feel happy yet intimidating. Maybe cos he's a star & I'm no one.

Chanyeol: "Are you listening?"

(Y/n): "Well.. let's just eat first then. After that we'll think what to do."

We went to the restaurant nearby & had dinner. It was empty yet it took quite some time for them to take our order & finally serve us & above that Chanyeol ate really slow. 

(Y/n): "Great, we're late now. You take so long to eat."

Chanyeol: "Hey the food was tasty, don't blame me. I wanted to enjoy every bit of it."

I am supposed to be mad at him but he's such a baby & it doesn't let me stay mad at him. I finally let a smile & he smiles back.

(Y/n): "What to do now..? It'll take time for us to look for other places. I haven't even brought my phone. And yours wouldn't have a signal here."

Chanyeol: "I'll stay at the footpath hahaha."

(Y/n): "Chanyeollie.. if you don't mind you can stay at my place. I mean it ain't so big but it's good & comfortable."

Chanyeol: "I don't wanna trouble you, I've already wasted so much of your time & all im vain."

(Y/n): "Hey it's totally fine. You can stay at my place, I don't mind. You can have your own room."

We start walking to my house.

Chanyeol: "Your parents won't mind?"
(Y/n): "I don't live with my parents. Since I'm finishing my studies & looking for a job, I had to here."
Chanyeol: "You live all alone?"

(Y/n): "Well sometimes my best friend, (bff/n) stays over at my place. Other than that I live alone. And you know she's not in the city these days."

Chanyeol: "And your boyfriend..?"

"I don't have a boyfriend." I say

He looks at me with eyes wide open.

"You really don't have a boyfriend?" He asks

"Um.. no? And what's with that weird expression?" I ask

"No.. nothing." He smiles shyly

We finally reach at my place.

"You're weird. Anyways want some coffee?" I ask while we get inside my house.

"Yes sure! I'd love that." He looks at me with a warm smile on his face.

That smile.. I blame it for making me so crazy about you. The first time I saw you.. your smile was what made me feel happy & warm, making me feel so safe & secure. I still remember that day as if it was just yesterday. When I saw a picture of you smiling. I remember how it made me feel strong when I was going through so much. Even though I saw your for the first time, something inside me felt like I've known you for a lifetime. It's weird how feelings work. Sometimes all it takes is a second to make you fall in love with someone & other times you can't fall in love with someone even if you've stayed with them for your whole life.