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Chapter 23

Chapter 23.....Love At First Sight

It was strange to say the least to hear all the voices around me. To have your brain push through the fog of the surgery before your motor skills. It took a few moments to regain my equilibrium but eventually I was able to open my eyes and focus on the recovery room nurse and Dr Hamilton.

Dr. Hamilton took my hand in his, "Congratulations you are the proud mom of two twin boys. The surgery went great."

Somewhere inside his words registered but I was so tiered all I could do was smile. "Your going to stay here in recover while everything wears off. Then we take you to the NICU where the babies are."

I nodded and closed my eyes as I could no longer force them to stay open. The next thing I truly consciously remember was waking up to Wills handsome face. His intense years searching my face, "It's good to see you. I was beginning to wonder if you were pretending to be sleeping beauty."

I smiled at his reference, "Maybe I was waiting for Prince Charming to kiss me."

Without hesitation Will leaned over and gave me a soft lingering kiss. His lips soft and coaxing as a warm sensation coasted through my body. When he pulled away I licked my lips still tasting his mint flavoured lips.

He took my hands in his, "I just want to worn you that the babies are small and they have breathing tubes helping them breath. We can't hold them but there are these glove things that you can use to touch them through the incubators."

A small tear escaped the corner of my eye. "Don't cry they are doing good and are stronger than the doctors expected. They just need some help for a little bit." Will folded me in his arms and kissed away my years. Tucking me against his chest he just held me in the warm comfort of his arms.

A nurse finally come and got me and helped me from the bed to a wheel chair. Will walked beside me holding my hand as we went. We buzzed through a couple of doors and finally I was rolled up in front of the incubators. I was scared to move, I couldn't breath, only stare. They were so small and the tubes looked so big. Will angled the wheelchair so I could put my hand through the glove to touch them.

The nurse squatted in front of me taking my hand in hers. "They are doing great Dee and getting stronger by the minute. We have put them in the same incubator. It's called The Piggy Back Method. It helps to reduce the stress on them instead of separating them."

The nurse left to attend other babies giving us out privacy. "Their beautiful," Will whispered in my ear. "I'm so proud of you."

I laughed as I watched him walk around to the front of me. "I think your DNA might have had a little something to do with them too."

Will took my had and in silent awe we stared at the two amazing little bundles that now belonged to us. Gently through gloved hands I stroked their cheeks. Held their tinny hands and rubbed the bottom of their feet. My arms ached to hold them.

When the nurse returned she was caring a breast pump with her. "Dee the babies are going to need to eat. Did you breast feed with your daughters?"

I tried not to outwardly laugh at Will as he blushed head to toe. " Ya I'm pretty sure I remember how. Like riding a bike."

"So if you will just come with me well get you started. As well your daughters are at their whits end wanting to see their brothers. If you don't mind I'll have Will bring them in and then everyone can meet back at your room." As she lead me away Will gave my hand one final squeeze before he let go.

After a quick refresher the nurse handed me some collection bags label Casey Twins Boy. "Here are some magazines and tv remote. Just hit the buzzer when your finished. Don't worry how much milk you can get the first few times as you production will increase." With that she disappeared from the room.

When I turned on the pump I immediately became self conscious of the noise it made. Thank god I was in a private room. Trying to distract myself I picked up one of the collection bags and read the name again. Casey Twins Boy. It seemed so surreal to see Wills name on everything to do with the twins. I closed my eyes thinking just how far things had come in the last seven months. At first I was scared of Will and I hated him. Now the tables had turned coming full round. Instead I was scared to loose him and hated the thought of my life without him.

True to her word the nurse appeared as soon as I rang the buzzer and she whisked me off to my private room. It was great to see everyone but I was so exhausted it became overwhelming. I felt as if I had been up for days straight when in truth it had been a mere four hours. When a nurse came in to do a check up and give some pain medication she suggested that everyone let me get some rest. In the moments of silence that fallowed I drifted to sleep.

When I awoke I didn't know how many hours had passed. Obviously several as all I could see was night sky outside my window. Laying there in the dark cold sterile hospital room I began to feel a unwelcome sadness lay over me like a heavy wool blanket. I felt so alone and wished for the noisy chatter of everyone. I ran my hand along my flat belly and longed to feel my baby bump. As I tried to push back the hot tears as they squeaked from the corners of my eyes. The more the tears fell, the more frustrated I became, the more the tears fell. I couldn't believe it....apparently I had already purchased a ticket and was on the postpartum roller coaster.

When my door open I quickly dried my eyes into my blanket and turned to squint blindly at the figure coming in. "Sorry did u wake you?"

Instantly every raw nerve I had was soothed and calmed. My body physically reacting letting go of the pent up stress. "Will what are you doing here?"

"Well I was thinking if you didn't mind I would spend the night." He dropped his bags onto a chair and came to my side of the bed. Wordlessly he wiped the tears from my eyes."Here roll on your side and more over."

I couldn't believe Will was here but I happily complied to his request. My heart skipped a beat as Will got into bed with me and pulled me against him so we were spooning. "I'm not sure the hospital would approve of this."

Wills laugh was muffled by my hair, "Were just cuddling it's not like I got your feet up in the stirrups or anything." I flushed from head to toe at the image that sprung to mind. "Besides I'm paying a small fortune for a private room so they can kiss my ass."

"I'm sorry I keep crying and I'm such a mess." I mumbled into my pillow.

"Dr Hamilton warned me it would all hit quick and pretty hard. Going from double the pregnancy hormones to none is going to be a hell of a shock to your system. I figure if I could be their for the fun of making the babies then the least I could do is help you through this part too." Will leaned up on his elbow looking down at me, "So just for reference the stirrups are at the end of the bed right?"

When I punched him in the arm his smile beamed and his eyes twinkled. I was trapped, lost in the moment. When his hand caressed my face I leaned into his touch. "You know something? We better pick some baby names."

We talked for hours about names before we finally settled on Logan James Casey and Landin Michele Casey.

That night I dozed off feeling complete and full of hope in Wills brace.

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