PAROXYSM- NCT TEN

Chapter 32

Heartbreak could last for years or just hours depending on the person who's suffering. Unable to keep my self locked in the room since last night, I threw on a hoodie and went outside. Surprisingly Vernon wasn't there lying on the floor.

However, guilt washed over me as I remember him crying just because of me. I've been a very bad friend, he always took care of me, made me smile and the only thing I remember giving him was wounds too injured to be healed.

Shaking her head trying to let those thoughts vanish, Lisa walked over to the cafeteria. Only to realise that the boys were sitting there.

Each one of them looking like a zombie, they were in such a deep conversation that they didn't even notice me standing there.

Until Lucas noticed my presence, Noona..

And in an instant their heads turned around to see me standing there.

It felt so awkward as if I was meeting them for the first time, I wanted to...

My heartbeat was rising and face would have shown how I really felt about being here.

So I rambled out, I'm so sorry I shouldn't be here.

I was about to leave but Lucas held on to my hand.

Noona, he wiped the tear that left my eye. I'm not sure what you're more heartbroken about, us finding about your mother or the fact that we're leaving..

I slightly push him away from me, using my hands to dry out the tears that we're going to fall in a few secs. I'm sad because you guys are leaving! Why are men such idiots!!

This time another soft hand held on to my forearm, dragging me with such force that I hit him in the chest. His hands snaked around my waist, the way our bodies fit inside each other's I knew who he was. I knew this was Ten..

His heart beat rhythm matched mine, hyperventilating I moved away from him.

This is wrong, I don't like you anymore.

Taking a step closer to me he told me, you don't like me? Lisa the first time I met you I fell in love with you. I love how carefree, humble you are. I love how passionate you get when you talk about things you like. I love how you take care of the boys, you mess with them. I... I love you, Lisa I love you and I can't stay away from you. Please don't break up with me.

Standing there like a total idiot, unable to say a word I hugged him and I cried. I cried because I loved him, I cried because I can't stay away from him either..