Breaking My Silence

Chapter Eleven - Time To Let The Past Go

When we got there, Ellie and Mikey were perfectly acquainted; Zane was in the zone as he prepared for the fight. This fight meant more to him than most although it will be a blood bath because as, like many times before Tyler has decided to make this personal, thinking only about what he is doing at the time and not how what he is doing will affect anyone else around him, in the long or short term. I fumed just thinking about it. Zane and Mikey went straight to the gym, their warm up routine was slightly different to mine and when they fight together, and their warm up routine is different again to when they fight solo.

I took Ellie to Jimmy’s office and I let myself in, nodding to some of the bouncers on the way, they all recognise me and some of them are quite protective, such as Dom the bouncer outside Jimmy’s office. It was part of the unknown conditions for the promotion was to have a protective nature towards me, as Jimmy would not have me unprotected, like I said earlier he is like the dad, my father should be even though there is like a 15 year age difference, and Jimmy has an incredible paternal instinct.

I sat myself in the executive chair behind Jimmy’s desk and I tucked one leg under my butt and brought one knee to my chest. Ellie stretched out across the couch next to the door and faced the window that looks over the whole organisation.  I turned to her and began to explain why this fight was such an important one for the three of us.

“This is going to sound terribly cliché but I guess clichés started out from real life. I was 10 when I first met Tyler and we hated each other, or at least we thought we did, we’d fight all the time and we did this for 3 or 4 years when we first started ‘dating’ when we were 14 it was your typical 14 year old relationship, when went out for like 6 months but we have always had this attraction to each other that has never gone away. If we were older I would call it sexual tension. And through all his girlfriends, I was one of his first serious ones, and his self-proclaimed ‘first-love’ we always came back to each other whether it was hanging out here and there or just a text, always came back. There was a whole lot of other crap that happened too but that’s irrelevant.” I stopped for a breath after the monologue but Ellie gestured at me to hurry up and tell the story.

“About a year ago at a mutual friend’s party, I saw him again after about 9 months of us not talking; his girlfriends have a habit of forbidding him to talk to me. I saw him again and we just talked, about everything, about each other’s lives and our history together, we got carried away and ended up in the bathroom together and me being a little drunk he took advantage of me for his own gain. I don’t even know, but what I do know is that I used to love him and when his girlfriend found out, she flipped, there was a huge thing and since then, we don’t even look at each other.”

A tear began to leak from my eye. It was pathetic.

“I’m sorry but I can’t tell it properly, I just make myself sound pathetic”

Ellie crossed the room and pulled me into a hug.

“You are not pathetic.”

I cut her off.

“Not anymore, he had everything coming. He couldn’t stop, so now Zane and Mikey are getting involved, dumb fuck. Hell is to be paid.” I pulled myself out of the self-pity and into the true fighter mind-set that I can never lose around here.

I pulled myself up to my full height and slipped out of the weak Rosie that slipped through the cracks and became Zeus’s Legacy, the best female fighter this state has ever seen. 

I walked out of the office with Ellie beside me and cut through the gym, as the stair case from Jimmy’s office gives us a beeline to the club many of the fighters, the new ones anyway did not recognise me on sight and thought Ellie and I were just some groupies after Jimmy, this brought on a few wolf whistles.