Breaking My Silence

Chapter Fourteen - I Hate To See You Broken

I was so absorbed with the conversation and company that I didn’t register who was coming out of the elevator, I almost walked into him and my knees went weak. Hayden realised what was going on and took Casey from my arms and passed him over to Ayla and I heard him say to take Casey to the car and that we will meet her there. She looked confused but went along with it.

I was still in shock. I knew we were close but I was hoping I wouldn’t see him. Zane looked horrible. He looked like he hadn’t slept at all. He also smelt like alcohol.

I just stared.

“Rosie -” his voice cracked as he said my name.

“Zane” I replied coldly.

Hayden was at my back, staying silent, but there if anything should happen.

“What are you doing here?” He asked quietly.

“Zane, what I do now isn’t your concern.” I said softly. Holding back the tears, I was still furious with him. I never thought he’d be the one to say such horrible things to me.

“Rosie, please –”   Zane began to plead.

“No Zane, I’m going to go okay.” My hand twitched in a half wave and with a sad smile I turn and step into the elevator.

I saw Zane’s shoulders slump as the doors began to close. If Zane could break that would have been the moment it had happened and the knowledge of that alone almost pushed me to rush back to him and forgive him so everything could go back to normal but as Hayden squeezed my hand and brought me back down to earth. I knew it would take a lot more for me to forgive him.

I didn’t shed a tear as I began to put up the walls that had begun to crack over the past few weeks.

Ayla gave me a sympathetic look as Hayden pulled me into a bear hug as I wept. I couldn’t bear seeing Zane like that. He’s always been the one to be there for me, always been the one to support me and to hear him say that he doesn’t support my ‘not quite relationship’ with Hayden breaks my heart.

I crave his approval of the decisions I make like a child does a parent.

He is basically my ‘father figure’. Zane raised me and up until a few weeks ago, it was the two of us against the world. We only had each other and then of course we had Mikey and Jimmy thrown in there to make up our silly little family.

But then Hayden came along and made me feel, something else apart from numb for a change.

I almost snapped seeing Zane broken like that.

I just couldn’t hold the pain in any longer. I cried and cried and hated myself for it.

My eyes were blurred and I barley realised we were in the lobby when I felt a brick wall hit me. I glanced up and blinked away tears to see Mikey’s usually composed face was screwed up in pain and I could feel the helplessness he felt as he watched the only two people he cared about  in the world, fight like this.

He just wrapped me up into his arms and wouldn’t let go.

“Mikey,” I whispered “I need to go”

He dropped his arms reluctantly to his sides and his emotionless expression was pieced together as he brought his walls back up.

“He’ll sort it out, baby girl. I promise”

I shook my head, “It’s going to take a lot for us to move on from this one, Michael.”

Mikey nodded and stepped into the elevator without word,

Hayden took my hand tenderly in his as he led me out to his car.

I was surprised when he pulled a child’s car seat out of his trunk. 

I let a sad smile slip. Hayden is the last person I would expect to have a baby seat in his trunk.

Hayden never failed to surprise me and as he clipped it in Ayla waited patiently with a quietly cooing Casey. I watched silently, enjoying being able to see this side of Hayden.

Ayla began to buckle Casey in and settled into the back seat.

I was about to say something when Hayden once again took my hand and lead me to the back of the car out of Ayla’s sight and kissed me on the forehead before resting his forehead against mine so our gazes were locked.

My skin was tingling due to his touch and I stood up on tiptoes so that I could reach his lips.

Hayden returned the kiss tenderly. I put all my pent up emotion into the kiss and ran my tongue along his bottom lip. He smiled but kept his lips firmly shut.

I supressed the urge to roll my eyes and retaliated by pressing my body along his so that every part of us was touching. He moaned, a low sound in the back of his throat, that send shivers through my body before he pulled away with a mischievous grin.

“We’re going to make Casey grumpy if we don’t get to the restaurant to feed him soon.”

I groaned and tucked myself into the passenger side and slid along the bench seat, so I was curled up against Hayden’s side.

Hayden smirked at me “We’ll finish our conversation later” he winked and placed his hand on my thigh and began to rub circles with his thumb.

I gave him a dirty look as he knew full well what he was doing, the bastard.

The only thing I could concentrate on was not doing anything while his sister was around. I don’t think she’d appreciate either of the options right now, whether I jumped his bones or killed him. 

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I'm sorry it's been so long but i have had the worst writers block, and I know it's short.

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Jaime :)