The unseen love

Chapter XI -> Fear, trust and, love?

What arthit says is bold

What kongpob says is underlined

thoughts in dialogues and monologues are in Italics

I had the opportunity to squeeze out some time flr an update so here we go.

Arthit POV

SHia arthit, you and your loud mouth why didn't you keep silent. An awkward silence had fallen, He didn't move. Never mind, one side of me hoped he would go and leave me to sleep while the other was wanting him to stay and explain his actions. but he didn't go away, Instead he walked back to my bed, sitting down on the edge before starting tot talk, his voice wavering slightly, I felt he was nervous.

Kongpob

I didn't know what to do, should I return or just go away, he had said never mind but that didn't change it for me. I wanted him to open up which would only happen, I figured if he knew my motivations and trusted them to be true. So I walked back and went to sit on the bed, nervous and trembling a bit.

P'Arthit, whatever you say, acknowledge or deny, something out there is troubling you, a person won't just try to commit suicide for no reason at all, also the wounds you have, the bruises all point to you being in trouble. And even though I only know you for a short period of time I don't want you nor anyone else to be in trouble. Everybody deserves happiness in his life, everybody deserves to exploit the opportunities life provides, to have a family, a partner, but also protection from evil. You are, at least judging from what I saw until now, strong enough to deal with things but peole might take advantage from your blindness and it seems what you are facing now isn't exactly something you have under control. Plus why should you reject the help of other people when they sincerely want to help you with your troubles? And do not think that I am pitying you cause I do not, but I do want to help you with whatever is bothering you right now. You don't have to but at least tell me if I can do anything for you. We are roommates for likely multiple years if both of us finish our study as scheduled but that also means helping each other if there is a need to, a need which I think is present right now.

Kongpob, that all sounds really nice but who guarantees me I can trust you, as you said we just know each other for a very short period, why suddenly this caring for me?

As I said you are not obliged to tell me anything but at least think about the positive sides of trusting someone. And if you don't trust me, tell what I must do so you do trust me, why don't you trust people that are sincerely worried for you?

Arthit POV

I was facing a massive dillema, if I wanted to I could just dismiss him but something inside me told me to take this chance that was presenting itself to me. D*mn, what should I do? I knew if I didn't take this opportunity I would blame myself forever if my life hadn't changed from what is was now, a constant battle between the light and dark. I sighed, first take a chair Kongpob, this will be a long story and sitting on the bedside won't do much good to your back. He had taken a chair and sat down, uttering not a single word, just waiting for me to start talking.

I started narrating my the story of my life. The abuse and hatred of my father, the lost love of my mother, the bullying in highschool including the betrayal of bright. Detailing the course of my life. I however left out the troubles that had faced me the last weeks. During my narrating he had remained silent all the time, only once softly asking me, to please continue. When I told him of my mothers death he took my hand in his, soothing me while I cried, without saying a single word. my voice had become shaky but I went on feeling his tears on the palm of my hand, Why was he crying for me? was he that sensitive? When I ended my narrative I asked him:
Who tells me trusting you won't start another cycle of pain and betrayal? All the people that I ever trusted or loved either betrayed me, died or are on the verge of dying. As for your question how you can get my trust there is only one way if any, prove your sincerity to me. How to do so? I don't know, thats for you to find out cause as I said I don't have a clue either. I hope you now understand though why I won't you easily and understand it isn't something about you in particular. But I ask you this, please do make me trust you, don't make me regret telling you all of this. Thanks for the chance and telling me this P'Arthit, I promise I won't spoil it he whispered in my ear before silently leaving the room withdrawn in his thoughts.