The unseen love

Chapter XVI -> A sudden confession

A.N.
For the monologues arthit has those are the 2 sides of his personality battling each other, his rational thinking side and his emotional thinking side.

This chapter has cost me the most difficulty in writing, so I hope its enjoyable.

Kongpob Pov

It was as if I had been struck with lightning, all my plans on how to confess to him were rendered completely useless in only a split second. But now that an opportunity had announced itself I wouldn't just let it go, in some way I would have to tell him without upsetting him or something. I hadn't ever faced such a situation in my life, nor did I ever fall in love with someone. My family had tried for multiple times to set me up with some girl but somehow I wasn't interested in them at all. Aside of that it now seemed to me that a rejection was so much more easier to give than making a confession could ever be.

Kongpob, are you still planning to answer before midnight? I could see that he was becoming overly nervous but so was I with myself and I simply found myself at a total loss of words. Never mind it, Just forget the question I am sorry for aski... Never than I'd rather throw it out. I like you. That's why. I saw him freeze, before he turned around, his face was laughable and had the situation not be this serious I would have surely burst into laughter, it was as if one big question mark was staring at me, his mouth hanging wide open. He moved his jaw but couldn't make any sound at all. What did you say? I said, I like you. And I don't like you as just a friend, for me it's more, to me YOU are meaning more than just a friend. When I finished my sentence he just stood there, silent and nervous.

Arthit Pov

Why don't you take the chance Arthit? It's a dream coming true for you what are you waiting for? ARTHIT?!?!?! Yeah I wanted this to happen but now that it does happen I am afraid. To be clear Yes I like him, yes I want to date but unfortunately dating me comes with some baggage. I am blind, what can I offer to someone? I am socially awkward, sometimes shy sometimes direct, too rational, too sensitive and a bit of a dominant controlfreak so again what do I have to offer? You fool, foolish fooled fool. Do you like him? Do you like his presence, his company, his care, his comfort, his embrace, just anything he does? Why do you hide now behind this "disability Arthit"? Whats with asking him why and then being afraid of the answer you hoped for? You care because he is a boy? Say up, I am waiting, I do like him, and all those things, and that he is a boy is not something for me to reject him on. I have no experience with love whatsoever so gender I don't care for. Then why? He is here even after everything you told him, why wouldn't he stay now as well? Get out of this stupid shell of yours and take him and his what is it? liking or love? claim it arthit. What if he turns out like bright? What if he dies like mother? What if.. just because all these ifs you deny yourself a boyfriend? Just because something that has statistical possibly of only 0.something percent??!! HE LIKES YOU, AND YOU LIKE HIM. PERIOD ARTHIT. AND I FEAR BONDING SOMEONE, I fear loving a person only for losing them. Well then speak out your fears to him, tell him you like him but your fears inhibit reciprocating the feeling for now, would that make you happy? No, than cut the pathetic whiny thinking arthit, be a man and challenge your fears, or are you too weak and pathetic to do so huh? Always those stupid feelings, they mess up the whole system. You're right, I should tell him but how? I like you but sorry I have too much fears to follow through on it? Shut up. A cough roughly took me back to reality.

I swallowed and coughed trying to clear my throat before speaking. Kongpob, During the past weeks you and I have gotten very close, and from my view it is clear that you care a lot for me. Though I find it hard to show I do as well. I am afraid though, what is there that I have to offer to you? What can I add to your life? I am as many say, in many aspects, a nuisance, impulsive, hotheaded, a controlfreak, blind, socially clumsy and you know what baggage I further come with. I am afraid, I never dated anyone let alone a guy, People I loved betrayed or left me, and I can't offer anything but negative things, why wouldn't you leave me? Notwithstanding all those fears I must admit The time you secretly pecked me on the cheek thinking I was asleep sent my heart into turbo mode, While I talked i had slowly walked towards him searching for his hand until he seeing that laid them into mine. Knowing you being in severe danger because of saving my life, it hurt, but what hurted me most was that I slapped you, and that still hurts, arthit was crying by now But there is one thing I cannot deny. I like you, I am afraid of bonding but I do want to give it a try with you, so Kongpob please, will you be my boyfriend, accept me for who I am ? He softly answered, in a voice thick with emotion: yes I will.
I felt him taking me in for a hug, While I caressed his cheek with my thumb, it's okey Arthit, don't worry about it, that evening and night are now behind us, something to learn from but do not drown in the feeling you don't have to, and if you do talk about them, don't please don't ever remain silent about what you feel.
I just pecked him on the cheek in response before laying my head on his shoulders, tightening my arms around him as if I wanted to fuse our bodies together. I felt an euphoric feeling in my heart, a happiness incomparable to anything I ever felt. I had found, Love.

Kongpob Pov

What struck me most was how he still thought over the slap he gave me. For me it had felt as something I deserved but for him it clearly was something he felt terrible about, his actions showed. He clearly was a very sensitive person, very emotional, a true sun, shining brightly. We just stood there in each other's arms enjoying the other's smell and company.
Arthit? Mmhhm, may I kiss you? He raised his head in surprise, please, his voice told me enough, so I softly took him in my hand behind his neck, locking our lips together, no passion, no rough action, just pure, love. It was the sweetest thing I had ever tasted, we stayed like that for a long time, just kissing and pecking, caressing the other's face showing our letting our tongues dance together, it felt like being in heaven. When we stopped I just fell back in his embrace, tears of happiness flowing over my cheeks, I whispered: Kongpob, I love you, I love you too Arthit he whispered back. At that point I wished we could just remain like that forever.
Arthit Pov

When he said that my heart exploded inside my chest, and I was sure my whole belly was filled with butterflies. When we went to sleep he took me in his embrace, in those strong arms of him, we had slept together only once but where he seemed to be carefull not to surpass my borders I had pulled him in my massive 3p bed. He had taken me in his warm embrace, pecking me on the cheek while wishing me a good night. For the first time in years I felt completely secure, no I even felt loved. I prayed for us to be a success overcoming whatever obstacle there might be. That night we both slept better than we ever had before.

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A.N.
So guys what do you think? These more sweet chapter take me much more effort but I think it's okay.
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Character talk

Arthit: finally, something else than bright and bruises

Kongpob: hehehe, sure was good

Arthit: our author is improving

Author: well you never know what is waiting, all I have to say right now is this:

It has done so and will do so for the whole story.
Darkness is still awaiting for both of you but at the end it will be happy just as I told you this sweet moment would come and look here it is, so

Arthit: (running to Kongpob) Kong, save me,

Kongpob: sshhh baby, everything will end alright.

Arhit: Hmm, why should I believe that from a fool who doesn't dare cross the streets unmasked?

Author: be careful, I find your lack of faith disturbing. Your sweetness might soon be over.

Arthit: no, please not, I am sorry. I'll get you a new suit?

Author: you will be alright in the end, don't be afraid. And for the suit, I cannot be bribed, this one is fine.

They ended up sleeping while the author watched them with a faint smile before he silently put on his mask and left the room. What darkness will they have to endure before the story comes to an end? Only time would tell, but he didn't foresee much good.