Black Blood

Chapter 6 : The break-up part 2

"You've already lost me"
As I said the words, something inside me broke. It was almost impossible to stop my tongue from shivering. I had never been so vulnerable before, neither had I ever thought of cheating on her.
A part of me wanted to allow her inside, to feel what I was feeling. To allow her to touch my fears away. A part of me ached to be with her, to take the words back at the very moment they came out of my mouth. But it was not just about me. It was about her too. Darkness resided in me and it could have swallowed her too, leaving behind two lifeless skeletons. She was spring and I was autumn. She was life and I was death. Sooner or later she would forget me and my words and now that I had given her a reason to stay away. Thus, she would soon move on too.
Arora never cried. She would always conceal her tears it was like a knife to my heart to see her cry that day.
"Ple-ase. Don-t." She sobbed and tried to take my hand again. Pushing her hand away I strolled away from her. I could still hear her.
"I'm sorry Love. But this is the best for you."
Whispering to myself I went home.

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When I entered home, the neighbour's dog Sammy was sitting in our garden. He often came here and played with me.
"Huff, huff" Sammy barked in a playful tone with a swirling tail.
"Hey Sammy. How are you doing boy."
I said, ruffling his hair.
Suddenly he got up and started sniffing the grass and came back with a ball in his mouth.
Playing with him always helped me relax.
"Oh so you wanna play."
It was going all cheerful till I saw a dagger placed in the left corner of the house.
Come here Lee pick me up.
Lets playy.
It said to me.
So I went, picked it up and brought it with me.
Sammy sat besides me while the dagger and I made plans of how to kill him.
Then the thoughts started out of nowhere in my head.
"Would it be better If we cut the tail first?"
"Go for the neck. You don't want to waste all your energy on such a useless thing!"
The dagger replied. Hence I picked the dagger but somehow it fell off my hands. Samy was still swirling his tail. His tail and neck both reminding me to cut them.
I picked the dagger again.
There was a sound of collision and splash.
And then it was dropped. By me.
My eyes stared at Sammy. What was I going to do? Where was I and why was this urge to pick up the dagger??
I ran away from sammy too.
As I sat foot in my house. Abruptly, I closed the door behind me. Causing Samy to stay where he was.
With my heart beating so fast, I could hear the thumps like someone had stepped on it as I searched for the pills.
My hands were trembling when I finally found the the pills on the side table of my bedroom. I took two sleeping pills at once and let myself drown in sleep.

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A knock at my door woke me up. I looked at my phone screen. It said Sunday, 2Pm.
I wondered who might it be. Since my parents were out and no one else had the key to our house except.....
Giving me little time to figure out, Arora stepped in my room.
I faked sleeping.
She sat at the side where there was some space left on my bed.
"I know you're awake Lee and that you can sense me sitting here," Arora said.
Yes she knew. What was I thinking faking anything in front of her. She knew me too much to believe.
"And I know you are suffering too."
Suffering? It couldn't be. How did she know? How could she know???
"Suffering from what?" My eyes flew open in surprise.
"Nothing made sense. The way you broke up with me, the way you pushed me in front of a running car. You can never do such things. Obviously I was hurt at first. I cried my eyes out for the whole night but then it dawned on me. You were hiding something from me...."Arora explained
Okay. She was smart. I'd give her that.
"Hiding? Why would I hide anything from you??"
Shrugging my shoulders I lifted my right eyebrow.
She came closer to me, putting her finger on my lips she said.
"Ssssshhh"
"Let me speak. Would you?" She took her finger away.
My eyes widened as I listened to her.
"That's the problem with you. You can't hide anything from me and then my father took me to aunt Lisa."
Aunt Lisa? Of Course she worked at The Milestone hospital. She was a psychologist at the same hospital I was being treated.
"He had to discuss something important regarding his divorce. Whereas Aunt Lisa noticed me. She made me stay."
"She somehow had a printed copy of your reports. She wants to meet you."
It was hard to beleive that she knew and was still sitting beside me. How did aunt Lisa know? And why did she want to meet me? It all sounded so confusing yet the most important thing was. How would I make Arora stay away now?
"Why are you still here.?" I questioned.
"What do you mean why??" Her eyes widened.
She shouldn't be here. I could snap anytime. The other side could take over me and I couldn't even think about the things I would do to harm her.
"I mean why the hell are you here Arora? After all this. You should be running away from me!!" I was out of my bed and screaming at her.
"When mum tried to kill me. Did you not risk your life to save mine??" She shouted back.
"That was another thing this is different. I can't see you die because of me. Arora."
" I CAN'T!!!" I screamed at her with all my strength and then fell on the floor. My back pressed in the wall.
"I can't, I just can't" faint words came out of my mouth.
She stood up cupped my face in her hands and said.
"First of all Relax. I am not going to leave you. Even if it takes my whole life to fight I will fight with you. I love you Lee. I'll always be there to remind you who you are. Life was always uncertain, if today one of those uncertainties has been made certain. it doesn't change anything between us. Because this is how life works. The time when you and I are here. And we are together. I'm never ever leaving your way. Don't be scared of me getting hurt. Because we were never sure in the first place. I don't really care about what lies ahead. Neither am I scared of it. Today I am here because I love you. And I know that you love me too and that's all what matters. We both took this decision to be together despite all the uncertainties. It's time we make it worthwhile!" She was now looking into my eyes.
"And remember what you said earlier?"
My mind was numb. It felt good being near her. I wanted the moment to stand still till eternity. She had always been brave, someone who had never betrayed me in any way. And it was confirm that she was not going away anytime soon. I knew it would be hard for us to be together but Gosh, her words were soothing. Never knew she had a thing with words.
"What?" I whispered with a shrill voice.
"People like me. Don't die so easily." She added while smiling at me with tears in her eyes.

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So guys it took alot of time to write this one. And it's finally done. I hope you guys will enjoy this. Don't forget to vote and comment.
-Ramsha