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After I safely back home , immediately I get inside my room without turn any light neither aircond nor fan .I'm afraid of dark but not today , I bite my long sleeve and scream as much as pain that I can't describe right now . Lock the door .

I'm not gonna wake my brother , I don't even know whether he's already back or not . I'm hope he's not back yet .

I'm hugging my bare leg , bite the sleeve , sit at the corner of my room , in the dark .

I feel so much pain . Too much .

Please yeol don't come into my room if you get back from work . I don't wanna you see me like this . I don't wanna make you include into this .

I flashback everything ... everything

First time we met ,
First time we met officially ,
First time in practice room with you ,
First time you purpose as your girlfriend ,
First time we hugging ,
First time we kissing ,
First time we broken .

All those memories keep replay in my mind but the most I hate right now the scene in hospital just now . I screaming loud ! Too loud until maybe my neighbor also can hear it

But then someone bang my door

Yeol:Y/n ! Y/n ! Please answer me ! Open the door ! What happened ! Why are you screaming !

Me:I'm sorry bro but not today

Yeol:okay I'm not gonna force you to story to me but please y/n , open this door let me see your condition !

He scream from the outside , he knew it I'm in trouble . I keep silent .

Yeol:y/n ! Please !

Me:leave me alone ~

I reply with low voice just enough to let he hear

Yeol:Please don't make the things 4 years ago

He remembered it . That's why until now he take care of me . Because only him , only him can persuade me , only him can make me calm . ONLY HIM , no replace yet even my parents .

-flashback-
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>4 years ago<

Yeol:princess ~

Me:go away !

Yeol:princess ~ look I know how much pain you are right now , princess did you know how much pain we are , i mean mom dad and me looking at you being like this ? Too much pain ~ but princess , we strong for you because we need to show how much strong we can handle the pain ~

He try to persuade me trough my bedroom door that I'm locking myself right now . Mom dad never can't replace how my brother persuade me

Yeol:open the door princess , I'm just gonna give you a hug please ~

Me:I don't need it ! Everyone want me to die ! I want to die ! They hate me ! They don't want to look into my face ! I'm jerk ! Go away !

Yeol:princess ! Please little ~ I want you by my side , just you , I can't survive without you ~ don't think about them ! Because I need you ! princess please listen to me , I'm not lying to you princess ~ I'd never lied to you .. right ?

Since I start change 4 school because everyone hates me , I tried to be strong because I have to study to make my dreams come true . But I can't keep my studies if everyone looked at me like a piggy poo